Whilst standing in a sea of faces
Tears inside me leave their traces
Fear shadows me like clouds
And gives birth unto doubt
And all around the sounds of voices
Inside I feel I've lost the choice

To live to die
To smile and try
To seek the meaning of my life

Yet within comes a soft wisper
Choose me
Choose life

Death beckons me to change my mind
To leave the sadness all behind
To let  this mortal life go by
Yet my soul still cry
What truth arise to let this lie
Within my confused mind

And a dove upon a branch up high
Beneath a cloudless sky
Brings peace unto my weary mind
As if to say

Choose me

Choose life!

Her hands bloomed with fragrant caress
soft as summer grass and petals
she touched the world

With gardens and tulips trumpeting songs
in reddish hues, amidst magenta
peony blooms

Apples and roses her face of flowers
ripe in autumn meadows, she held her children close
gathered ever near her love
before the winter's
dawn

Oaks, groves, winding roads, all the twisted branches
Gnarled reaches of a wrong direction
Acorns and disappointments
some on the ground, some hanging on
I came to gather mistletoe, or kiss the earth and sky
Nomadic tribeswoman, a newborn deer, lost and found
We have fallen asleep together, the deepest peace I've known
Now crows dancing on branches awaken me.
I am alone, with our heartbeats in perfect sync, the deer's and mine

Music came singing to the sky
It seemed none could sing or fly so high
maybe some birds
like children's laughter
a forgotten eternal spring,
a happiness
that comes and goes 
forever calling
one home

As if out from a tunnel
the first light deafens silence
wings unfold the soul - whispering
Plain truth in words unspoken
so precious the moments
of being unbroken

So soon the rains come
wet, washing
another path  
home

I've trudged the tracks of righteousness alone
And walked the walk of wickedness with grace.
I've done things I cannot now condone
On either side-- you'd see it in my face.

I thank god for this life which I have wasted
And all the gifts which it has given me,
But how do I repay when I've not tasted
The lavish love of such an old decree?

"By faith" you say. I say "you have it all,
For I'm not one to disbelieve my doubt
But faith? Oh, please don't make me lol.
Betrayal changes what men are all about."

Perhaps god's nothing. I'm fine with it;
Ex nihilo cogitatione fit.

Turn off your mind
Listen to the spaces
Between the sentences
Between the words
That your brain plants in you
To invade your comfort
Moving in and out and in again
Like the waves that crash ashore
That you love so much

Be one with your surroundings
Blend in and become the matter
That makes up everything around you
It is all the same
Everything alike
The only difference being
You are expected to go about
Happily
Knowing nothing
Of the true nature
Of the actuality of reality
Of how and why
You, me, him, her, them and us
Exist

The secret though
Is to do just that
Turn off your thoughts
Become an objective observer
Take in the sights and sounds
Let them consume you
And simply
Exist

You have to taste
The crunchy gravel
On the grounds of a house
Shrouded in misery
Feel your teeth breaking
As your face
Slams again and again
And again
Swallow the blood
And revel
In the internal bleeding
Seeping and soaking
From your organs
Into your thoughts

You have to die
An agonizing death
The end of a heart string
Stitched forever to your heart
But now lays limp
Apart from you
On the ground
Smiling up
It's teeth stained red
As it's screaming at you, beaming
To just go **** yourself
And move on
Get over it
Heave your slumped over body
Over that hill