sunrise colors
spreading fast
painting the sky
sunrise

raindrops
smooth and round
falling softly
rain

orange hues
pink red
across the clouds
beautiful views

cold, wet
drops hitting
wet circles
on pavement

warm
light arriving
sun peeking
sunrise

rain cold
splashing
soft wet
soothing

light
and water
combining
intertwining

gold sun
shines on
silver drop
mirroring light


symbiosis
of nature’s beauty
two things
sunrise rain

go to bed, dad does say
there’s no other way
or else you’ll wake late
just go to bed early
it’ll solve your problems

too thick headed to realize
it’s something I internalize
the fact that there’s much more
keeping me in bed and not
getting me out the door

sometimes I see no point
in trying to try
fix things you say, why
nothing will change

I’ll still be an outcast
with no friends that will last
I do not belong
you know I’m not wrong

sometimes I just can’t
find the energy
can’t you see

it’s a lack of motivation
that keeps me in bed
the big mental struggle
inside of my head

sometimes I can’t find it in me
to drag myself up
to get out of bed
can’t you see

the world is too scary
and too hard to bear
too many challenges
in the world of out there
I’m too weak to live life
not living, existing
merely surviving, and
barely at that

please understand
the life dealt to my hand
it’s not really my choice
I don’t have a voice

constantly beaten
by voices designed
to get me to cry

the ruthlessness
never ends
it’s all a cruel game
I’m just a pawn
to the kings and queens
of the game

sure it’s lame
so immature
what’s to be gained

don’t ask me
I don’t know
what I’m talking about
I’m simply too young to know
remember

please understand
sometimes I can’t
sometimes it’s too hard
thanks for the rant

made a promise I can’t keep
don’t wanna talk just wanna sleep
I don’t want to find someone
for problems that are well past begun

I know I’m not the only one
who feels like they’re coming undone
the world is hard to bear a lot
suicidal thoughts are all I got

leaving all these friends behind
will surely **** with my mind
it’ll help, that’s what she said
to get these thoughts out of your head

life will always be full of pain
but if you keep it in, there’s nothing to gain
just find someone to talk it out
and you will have much less doubt

bow tie and collars
nice pair of suspenders
buzzcut and braid
wanna get laid?
***-tuned world
labels all swirled
high level of confusion
doubt and frustration
all the stigma about
sexuality gender who you are

we tell you where you fit
labels aplenty
let me name many
****, ***, thot, *****
these and much much more
*****, *****, and traitor
see you all later
*******, druggie, and ****
nerd, geek, emo, goth
****, ******, loner
crackhead and stoner
athletic and pretty
simple or ****
labels aplenty
go on, take your pick

you do not know
with what fervor I love you
you do not know
how very true

you say that now
but the questions how
makes me blue
‘cause it ain’t true

you always lie
it makes me cry
you say these things
yet no truth rings

why do you make them up every day
don’t they pain you much to say
why do you tell lies to me
lies do not set you free

they twist you up inside with pain
tie you down to the tracks of a train
they cut you up and give you scars
feels like getting hit by cars

don’t lie to me

colors bright
catch the light
metal cools
silver rules
silk square
beauty there
twirling
swirling
breezy air
without a care
singing swish
make a wish
music fun
hope we won
rhythm beat
in your feet
hear the drum
don’t be glum
hot hot sun
hair in a bun
perform to the sky
planes passing by

fall arrives
whole new lives
more people join
fees paid by coin
things begin
teach to spin
friendships new
new show too
trouble’s coming now
stop it how
drama starts
breaking hearts
for you it’s no longer fun
but you are not the only one
did I mention
much team tension
you will see
no unity
you’re too late
all this hate
he’s a snitch
she’s a *****
wanna quit
more than a bit
you survived? how?
well at least it’s over now

falling snow
don’t you know
what this brings

my heart clings
to hopeful things
but they can’t last

dwelling on the past
happiness fading fast
sadness setting in

wonderings begin
is there a way to win
against this losing hope

the answer’s nope
try to cope
nothing will work

my mind is murk
darkness does lurk
in my mind

S.A.D. isn’t kind,
I did find
now I know

falling snow
don’t you know