She sits in her room
and dreams of her friends.
She's free and she's happy --
she's wanted and loved.

She smiles, she laughs
the opens her eyes
as her heart fills with dread.
It was only a dream.

She walks through the halls
and she puts on her show.
She smiles and laughs
but they'll never know.

She feels so alone,
she feels so left out,
she feels like she's lost,
unless she's with them.

Did she even belong?
Would she ever really know?
Could she ever be a part?
Or would she be unwanted?

Then came the day
when her dream came true.
Finally, she believes.
Finally, she belongs.

Honestly the ONLY thing I want right now
is to lay in bed with your arms wrapped around me.
And I just want to cuddle with you
listen to your heartbeat
and fall asleep with you.
Nothing else
I would do anything
just to be close to you
and have you in my arms.

Life isn't fair, is it?
**** happens to good people
Bad people reap rewards
For some twisted reason
There are those that defy
The norms of humanity

What faith is left?
What truth is there?

Truth isn't fun
Truth isn't nice
The truth is sad
The truth is depressing
The truth is that life
Well, life isn't fair

Time to grow the **** up

GROW UP

My grip on reality is loosening
My hold on this earth is slipping
Fish flying and birds swimming
No note rhyme or reason
There are elephants the size of ants
And bees like 747's dropping bombs
What's real and what's imagined?
Am I in one dimension or another?
Gravity doesn't exist and smiles are insults
Shaking hands is an act of war
Going on one million times over
War happening in the palm of my hand
Which way is earth? I live underground
My guitar weeps tears of blood
Coming out of every string and fret
Shadows come out of my fingertips
Nothing is safe, objects have mace
Ready and armed for an attack
On the human race
Human race

I was lost in this nameless island
and I could not find my way back home.
Sudden thoughts of mysteries
perplexed my mind;
how did I come here,
when I’m only about to love someone?

I wrote their names in the sand, indeed —
but it was only washed away
by the raging seas.
So then I realized,
it was the demise of all their love for me.

I walked the island —
and surrendered my heart in peace.
No one uttered those words
my ears ever wanted to hear,
so my tears could no longer be ceased.

When I’m about to **** my eyes
with the melancholic whisper of the breeze,
I suddenly found a starfish
beneath those ridging waves.

I was covered by contentment,
for I will never be alone anymore in this island.
So I ran towards her, to offer the warmth
she might had needed for years.

So lovely, so beautiful, so romantic,
I fell in the love all over again;
I felt something I could never explain.
I found the starfish beyond my solitude,
and hope she will be with me
until no more ends. 

Without doubts,
I decided to go nearer to where she was,
and took her away from the harmful water.
I was so happy,
now we are closer enough
to know each other better.

Is this really destined to happen?
I already begged for forgiveness
but still never forgiven.
I thought the water is harmful
so I took away what it owns,
and supposed that the starfish
would be glad if I would make her mine.
But suddenly, she just died.
 
When will I find complete happiness?
I thought I have already known
how to make everything stay with me,
but it only gave me loneliness again.
The starfish died because of me —
because of my selfish intentions,
I was so self-centered.

So then I realized,
the reason why people left me
even in the hardest battle in life,
and even I needed someone
when my laughter was outnumbered by cries.

Yes, every person I had — then vanished,
was just a reincarnation of the starfish.

I heard a cry in the night,
A thousand miles it came,
Sharp as a flash of light,
My name, my name!

It was your voice I heard,
You waked and loved me so—
I send you back this word,
I know, I know!