Katie DeWitt

Katie DeWitt Jul 2013

I feel like we’re in a game
Of pretending we don’t care
And you’re the obvious winner
Because the rules were never fair.

You came in to my life
When I was finally feeling fine
And put me right back into the place
Of wanting someone as mine.

I thought I was done with that,
Past that kind of living
But now I am there again
No take, only giving.

And I am still not sure how
Exactly you are feeling
Because if there was an award for poker faces
It would be yours for the taking.

So as I have, and as I will
I’ll just bide my time.
I will wait not-so-patiently
Hoping you will know I am not fine.

Katie DeWitt Jul 2013

Secrets

There are so many things I’ll never say
Like how often I think about you everyday
Or how your smile fills my soul;
Makes me feel right, makes me feel whole.
I’ll never tell you how I cry every day since you said goodbye
And how I miss you all the time,
How I am not even close to fine.
I won't mention that your touch;
A simple graze or a playful nudge
Makes my heart stop for a bit
And sends my senses into a fit.
Or how your arms felt like home,
That amazing feeling of safe and warm.
I’d never say that I stare at my phone
Wishing for something to not feel so alone,
Wondering why you don't text call,
Hoping for anything at all.
I'll never tell you exactly how I feel,
Or how I wish I knew if this was real
And I’ll never get to tell you I love you
Or hear you say it too.

Katie DeWitt Nov 2012

Pain, Pain, Go Away

So much time has come and gone,
Yet I still feel like you’re the one,
The person who is meant to be
With me, and only me.
Here we are at an impasse
Not quite sure if even our friendship will last,
But nevertheless I grasp onto it still
Trying to forget what I feel.
And somewhere you are doing fine
Completely happy that you’re not mine
Living with other regrets
But none that deal with our past.
And here I am, still crying out
Wish I knew what this was all about
Wondering if I will ever be okay
And when this pain with go away.

Katie DeWitt Nov 2012

Something Has Changed

Something is different
Everything seems new
And right on the surface
I know the reason is you.
A new way of thinking
And a joy in my walk
But the strangest thing is
Maybe it isn’t just small talk.
An interesting view
From my freshly opened eyes
Could it be real,
Or another one of my lies?
But for once I am not betting
For the ending to be tragic
On the contrary
I am thinking more so magic.

Katie DeWitt Nov 2012

Uncharted Seas

Losing myself to emotions uncharted
A sea of confusion
Leaving me broken hearted.

Forgetting my place in the reality,
The lines getting blurred
More and more frequently.

Missing out on everything normal,
Stuck in a dream,
A fantasy so palpable.

Knowing you will never know me,
A truth I try
To never see.

Katie DeWitt Nov 2012

Making a Choice

Woke up today,
Just like every other day,
Still feeling this pain
It just won’t go away.
I think of you,
All the **** you put me through
And how she gets the ‘I do’.

But it doesn’t change a thing,
You aren’t even listening,
And no matter the words I say
You won’t be mine,
So I’ll just bide my time.

Every day is another problem
For me to get caught in.
It is one thing or another
Issues flock together,
Two birds of a feather.

But no big deal,
Time will heal,
At least that’s what they say
Back in the day
When we are just kids
Our lives yet lived.

But we know it is wrong,
In truth we need to grow strong
As soon as we can
So we can take a stand
Against all that shoots us down
And makes us drown
In our own misery
So we can finally breathe.

Katie DeWitt Nov 2012

For Your Own Sake

Here we go again,
Down a cursed road,
Trying not to worry
While carrying this heavy load.
It really isn’t your fault,
For I am damaged goods,
So take it as a grain of salt
And head for the woods.
Don’t let me near your life
Or close to you at all
Because in a matter of time
I will surely fall.
Please guard yourself against
My misconceptions
And make sure to say the truth
And leave no perceptions.
Of course I would advise
No contact whatsoever
But you are so kind
And don’t know better.
So naïve and clueless boy
Run as fast as you can
Because before long
I will want you as my man.