Because the fact is, I was never good enough to be your first choice.

And in my mind I scream at him,
 
"HOLD ME."

Do something, anything to show me you care.

But he didn't move a muscle.

Someday, you will tire
                           of defeating your demons,

        and you shall befriend them instead.

You will sleep a great deal more soundly,
      and you'll forget how it feels to dread.

Wait

A blank page is like an invitation to create
You can write anything that spots the finger of fate
Already the brain is imagining the world or a message you would like to initiate
Most people write about emotions that they have been through and still find uncomfortable like a large weight
The hardest things to talk about are unconscious decisions made by evidence of pure conjecture or hate
Then, in fact, we are what we say we are but only in a conscious state
The trouble with thought processes is that no matter how far apart you are from reality you are still you anytime you deviate
Time takes the chance of knowing where everything is at a precise time even when you are late
When people say the gravity of the point or deed is used as a term in law often I find because through time only weights and measurements can convey the seriousness of to dictate
What I am trying to say is that time cannot change unless gravity changes but for that infinity may be a long time to wait.