I consider humans to be good
Born good, that is
Then life happens
Life takes away the innocence
Joy
the twinkle in your eye
and the skip in your step

As if that isn't bad enough
Life begins to turn you
your heart turns cold
freezes up
falls to the ground
and breaks into a million
little
pieces


You mend that heart
but with fire and brimstone
You become cruel
You become the one that now breaks hearts
You lie
You lie about lying
You find a good heart
pumping and pure

and
then
get
to
work

You tear that heart down
You burn it
then put it on ice
You put a bandaid where you harmed it
then turn around
and stab the other side

You cut and cut
till the heart is as broken as yours
You take something beautiful
kind
and sweet
and you destroy it with your coldness

How can you be so cruel

No words, no kisses, no tender caresses,

No amount of 'I love you's would ever persuade you to care,

I need not prove my worth to you.

The smell of ***
Is a memorable one.

My heart
It aches so
It used to ache for you
Now it yearns for fire
Flames to destroy your memory
Embers to slowly wither away
Wither away to darkness
Where you left me

Return for me not
Let me go
How many times can you run your blade
Through my beating heart
The blood is on the floors
Smeared on the walls of my bedroom
Drenching my sheets
But my heart still manages a beat

Let my heart regain its strength
Clean the ****** scene you left me in
Pick up the pieces I was ripped into
Find band-aids, gauze, and medical tape
Try and stop the blood spew
stop it from covering everything
everything that ever brought me any joy
Stop it before all I can see is crimson

Do not contact me
I need not hear the sound of your voice
Be reminded of the warmth of your arms
the feel of your lips
your hands in my hair
our fingers intertwined
the sound of you sleeping next to me
waking in the night and reaching for you

You have become my nightmare
The reason I wake in a cold sweat
I try and pretend
pretend my heart is mended
Draw a smile on my face
Superglue my tear ducts shut
You murdered me
then left me here to clean the mess

To describe a boy, man, or human I have known for such a short time
Trying to say something sweet and meaningful with a little rhyme
Through using a select number of lines shall prove a difficult chore
Wanting to reveal some truth, but keep him wanting more

Dare I use my wit, charm, and humor to make him smile
To be honest, my thoughts could run on for a mile
****** him with my depth, make him quiver with fear
Or write nothing real, keeping my heart far from near

To find some inspiration, I ponder your face
Your smile and Brown eyes, your warm embrace
The way you reacted, surprised me to my core
I wish you hadn't, for I am weary of what's in store

In getting close or closer, pick whichever word you so choose
Causes butterflies in my stomach, emotions spilling over, starting to ooze
I shan't be real, must keep my thoughts behind my tongue
for being genuine and open with others has left me stung

I have gone over my limit, perhaps leaving more to the imagination
Keep you wondering, guessing, drawing closer to infatuation
With the mystery that is me, unique, a little crazy, but with a good heart
Just between you and me, I am so terribly afraid of what may start.

Why must you still haunt my thoughts
The damage has been done
It is time you leave me be
Can you not let me rest in peace

I want to purge my mind of all your memories
your touch
smell
the blue of your eyes
the softness of your lips

I look to the day, where I no longer wish you harm
I no longer imagine tearing you
limb from limb
as your tore me
as you destroyed me

One day, though I'm not sure when
A day will come when I am healed
the scar tissue will have formed
and my desire to hurt you, as you hurt me, will exist no more

Till then, I ask you politely, leave my aching head be
I tire of recalling your memory

My ****** betrays me
It yearns to be touched, kissed, caressed
Drawn to the point of ecstasy
But perhaps lingering at the edge
To relish the pleasure for a moment
A moment
Longer

My ****** betrays me
Always wanting more
More
More
Never consolidating with the others parts
The brain
The heart
And we are not speaking in terms of anatomical correctness
No, but in terms of
Emotions
I said it

My ****** betrays me
My heart yearns
They argue
The heart wants intimacy, human touch, connection
The feeling of looking into the eyes of another and knowing
In that instant
That second
That moment
Everything is okay
And even if it isn’t
It doesn’t matter
Nothing will matter
Except
This
Moment

My ****** betrays me
My heart yearns
And they argue
But my brain
My logic
The voices within
They speak up, naturally of course
Please the ****** for the night
Intimacy
Ha
Intimacy
Have you looked inside
For your insides are as hideous as the out
Do not believe otherwise

My ****** betrays me
My heart yearns
They argue
But my brain
My brain does the most damage
It controls them all
The betrayal, the yearning
My brain betrays me
My brain wants what it cannot ever have
My brain desires things so far from its reach
My brain imagines the impossible
Love

My ****** betrays me
My heart yearns
They argue
Then my brain
My brain goes off
Thoughts passing by at the speed of light
Each one, so very important
My brain is in charge.
It supplies the salty wetness that falls from my eyes
The emptiness I feel within

My ****** betrays me
My heart yearns
They argue
But my brain
My brain destroys all
My brain burns the cities down
The dreams
Dashed against the rocks
My desires
Meaninglessly quenched
My emptiness
Forever there

My brain betrays me
My brain yearns
And within, is an argument
Within
Within is the problem
No one will ever know, So fear not
Let the brain betray
Let it yearn
For the mouth
Perhaps, that is who really is in charge
The mouth shall not betray
The eyes may
The eyes do
But who catches them long enough to see inside?
No one has, No one will

My brain betrays me
My brain yearns
An argument, within
But my mouth
Shall
Never
Betray
Me
It shall remain closed
Sealed tight
Strongest of clay bricks
Guarding my secrets
Guarding what lies within
The confines of my soul
Emotions

Emotions betray me
Emotions yearn
Emotions cause me to argue within
But my mouth
My
Mouth
Shall
Remain
Loyal