I'm afraid
I'm afraid that I am forgetting your smile
I'm afraid that I am forgetting how your eyes shine in the sunlight
I'm afraid that I will not remember your voice
I'm afraid that I will not remember the softness of your palms
So I pray everyday to see you again
Though I am afraid that the pain will pound through my heart again
I want to see you again, I'll endure the pain
So that I won't be afraid

live your own world
and manipulate your own thoughts.

try to see things differently.
see everything as a reflection of you.

express your feelings,
let it burst up in the sky

and that's when you'll start
to feel that you're breathing.

moving on
is like drowning
in a deep ocean,
and you're certain that
you will be dead soon
and the pain will end
but you will feel it first
slowly and brutally
taking your life one by one.

you are my sunshine but i am not yours
you are the right in this world full of mistakes
you can bend me back home.

and they say if i love you i should let you go
but i don't want to,
better to turn into stone
than to live a life without your love

maybe i'm selfish
maybe i'm not enough
maybe i'm not worthy of your kiss
you're a girl who makes this boy plead
to whoever is there
to plead
to let them give you to me.

we're like embers that floats
up to the endless dark sky,
trying to be like a star,
but just like our love,
our sparks died too soon.

everyday i wake up.
everyday i wake up remembering,
remembering how much i love you

everyday i miss your kisses,
everyday i miss your laugh,
everyday i miss the smell of your hair,
everyday i miss the feeling of holding your hands,
i feel safe protecting you.

all i can think now is how much i love you,
how much i miss you,
how much i adore you,
how much i care for you.

all i know now is that im in love.
ive forgotten everything that doesnt concern you,
ive forgotten everything that doesnt remind me of you.

i can die knowing nothing.
i can die a fool,
a fool for you,
a fool in love.

hey there my sin,
my poison and antidote,
my destruction, my beginning,
my light that travel faster than anything
my girl who freezes time.

hey there.
hold my hand.

You are beautiful.
You made me like a fool
And used me as if I'm a tool.

Now that you are away,
There's nothing that I can say...
But to think of you like the month of May.

It's crazy that it's been a year,
Since then you've put me in tears.
Still... I keep remembering the way you stood there,
With your eyes that shines, like your black hair.

I'm here, a fool, writing this,
For all I want to do is reminisce
The days you put my mind in haze,
But you still made my life exciting, like a maze.

Sitting in my room,
Alone, watching a film that I've watched many times
I think five times.

But this time you're in my mind,
lingering,
singing,
haunting,
mesmerizing,
teasing,
flirting,
kissing, killing me.

I want to see you NOW! TOMORROW! THE NEXT DAY!

My lady who wears black lipstick.

i love the curves
of your pale cheeks
when you smile,
it's exposing the beauty
of your cigarette burnt
pink lips.

I know from the first time
I saw her she's different.
She sees the world differently,
She lives her world differently.

Every time I stare at her brown eyes,
I know there's something going on inside her mind--
Her imagination,
Her creativity,
Is flowing up and down through the skies.

She has her own world,
Trapped inside her mind,
Unexposed and pure.

I love her,
I love to read her,
Like how she carefully read her books;
I love to caress her,
Like how she gently
Turn the pages of her old books.

The more I look into her eyes
The more I get lost,
From trying to see a glimpse
Of her own world buried deep behind her eyes,
But all I can see is the reflection
Of the world behind us.

She's the dot
that ends a
beautiful sentence.

She's a haven
where my mind
can rest.

life is true but i cant feel it anymore
what more to see what more to feel
coz all i feel is that im a fool,
a fool for life, a fool for affection,
a fool for companion, a fool for recognition,
a fool for comfort, a fool for euphoria,
a fool for a girl, a fool for love.

i want to burst into pieces that can never be found,
distinguished again, i want to rain.
pain, so much pain in a day, so much pain in a month.
so much life.

The truth is I don't understand anything,
My mind is always empty and occupied at the same time,
Occupied by nothingness.
I can't learn how to live this life,
And I want to, but I can't
All I know is that I need to breathe.
All I know that this poem doesn't make sense.
I just did this to empty my mind,
My mind that is occupied by nothingness.

i want to forget you
but i cant
coz everyday
my heart reminds
my mind
of your name

You're so fragile
You're so beautiful and
Yet you're not aware that you are.

You're so fragile
And you're not mine
And I'm afraid that he might break you into pieces
That i can never put back.

Youre so fragile
Yet so strong to give you're whole heart
To a person that can and will hurt you.
I adore you,
I admire you for being you
And for your lovely smile
That can make up my mornings.

You're so fragile
And I want to hold you within my arms,
I want to keep you safe,
To know that you're fine
For you are so precious to me.

And you're not mine,
You're his.
Just remember I'll be here when you're hurt and broken into pieces.
I'm here to comfort you.
I'm here to sing songs for you until you fall asleep.
Don't worry I'm here.

i want to paint you
i want to keep you
you scattered my brain
like the million stars in your eyes

but i cant still find you
my love can't cross to you
don't know why
maybe you know the answer

art, when i think of it
i'm also thinking of you
for you are one,
the one that can't be copied.

your one crooked tooth and
your small smile
that shows your small teeth,
making small wrinkles on your cheeks
is one hell of an art.

when i first held your hand,
it's like touching your soul
maybe just a part of your soul.

your hands are rough
like a beautiful tapestry
like an empty canvass
that is waiting for to be painted
by a painter's hand.

i can still recall the time
when i first put your hair
that is perfectly covering your face
behind your small pale ear,
it's like arranging the stars
for the moon to stand out.

your personality is abstract
your presence too
i can't explain a **** thing
when i'm with you
but i know what's happening is beautiful.

you're beautiful,
everything you do is beautiful
even if it's an accident or a mistake.

Don't throw yourself into the void
While letting all your dreams and fears fall out of you;
In front of your eyes.

You're different,
You and I can prove that.
Your face, your eyes
Are out of this world.
A face that I will and never find anywhere
But in a short lucid dream
That would mesmerize me when I wake up.

I love you and your lips,
It taste like colorful illusions of your memory.
I love you and your eyes,
That pierce through my mind creating a memory.

Two people sitting on a bench
In a beautiful place they dont know.
The boy dont know, he dont know.
He dont know that he is really falling,
Falling from the trees,
Falling from the sky,
Falling for her eyes,
Falling in love, yesterday afternoon.

you are the falling leaves
and i'm the pond.

one bye one you're falling to me,
covering me with your dry brown skin

until i'm no more seen
until you're slowly liquefying,

you being one with me.
i being one with you.

you and me being us.