I wanted to be a friend who cares
But if abusive and arrogant
Then cautiously and most probably
Not "a lot" anymore

But I feel like there's something in me
That's too sunny to be hidden
In my usually depressed personality
And I'd like it to burst

Like happiness
And warm hugs
And kisses and smiles
So bear and be with me.

This one is tested and proven
Though there's no published journal
Or any sort of paper, peer reviewed and rated
This one is a science of its own.

When you're feeling under the weather
Or just feeling down and sad
Try gratitude for there's a whole village
To be thankful about.

Lying has become my bad habit
A small lie gnawing and growing
Until I can lie without a blink
On how I don't care anymore.

Actually, it's quite helpful
Now moving on is a step away
But then, I'm afraid it'll take its toll on me
Nothing comes for free, this I know.

You can see a physical manifestation
Of my momentary affection for your soul
Pale skin and bags under the eyes
Chapped soles and long nails

Dry lips
Hollow cheeks
Broken heart
And of course, raspy lungs

Today I'm gonna tell you
How to be a good girl that Ma loves
First, remove all your piercings
But don't shove them down the drain
You'll need them later.

Second, have a straight hair that Ma likes
No buts and no ifs
Only yes and yes
But keep all your curler and ribbons
You'll need them to straighten your soul.

Nobody tells you this
In the street or in the market
Nobody texts you how it's done
But now that I've done it and I know why
Because it takes stamina to be a good girl.

I'm feeling under the weather lately
And my body starts to groan
Not like how it ****** under yours
But my cough is starting to sound like your name.

Always on replay
Never reaching the chorus
And I'm gulping down medicines
Instead of your mouth during those cold nights.

And here I am again
Pondering yet knowing why
I always remember you when things go gray
Slowly, slowly breathe and slowly slowly forget.