dry wind
slaps me awake
a reminder to my consciousness
of breathing lungs
of pumping blood

i look around
its all the same
a city, a crowd, a group,
of people smiling, laughing, crying,
of faces unfamiliar

some smile at me
and some wave
some glance, some stare.
some walk up to me, ask my name
i make them laugh , laugh myself.
Another encounter -- my heart flutters
just to break
when they ask my name again

fervor connections,
ardor bonds,
once eternal, now lost
beyond the moon
behind the sun
i envy the stars, i envy them.
every night, i beg and plead
to let me be a part of them
still they refuse,
a harsh tone.

where do i belong
if not the sky or the earth?

Though now, I think,
that I should forget.
Why hold on to things,
you know you'll never get?

I'm tired, exhausted,
of feeling this way.
It's not like you'll ever,
love me someday.

There's no use waiting,
for you, anyway.
So i think I'd rather just,
love you from a far away.

thought i'd move on,
like i always did.
cry for a week,
bounce back quick.
one after an other,
oh, how splendid.
is it that hard to move on?
"skill issue", i said.

Now i sit here,yearning,
wondering to myself,
why cant i just forget?
like i always did.
i catch myself smile,
thinking about all the goofy stuff we did.
how we said we'd buy a hundred cats,
oh, how we dreamt.

we'd laugh together on the phone,
hours pass by.
you ask me if i love you,
i laugh, nervous and shy.

you said,if we ever part,
i'll be the one to leave.
but,baby, your love never lived,
just like the promises you keep.

i gave you a piece of me,
a piece too dear.
so no wonder why i'm so empty,
without you near.