our relationship wasn't the moon or the stars
but it wasn't ******* either .
i guess you could say .
probably much more than that
maybe I'm lying
maybe I'm DELUSIONAL .

i wrote a poem about you
it's about how your smiles as bright as the sun
how you warm up my heart like hot chocolate on a cold winter day
how soft your lips are like the clouds floating in the sky
or how delicious your kisses are like fruit from a tropical rain forest
or how you're as strong as the wind blowing on an autumn afternoon
or how you light up my world like the stars in the night sky
or how my love for you is as big as the rings on Jupiter
or how you're my other half like the better side of the Oreo
i wrote a poem you saying all the things I'm afraid to say
or how you're my inspiration on how i write today
this poem is about you if you ever get to read it
and if you do just know you're the best thing that's ever happened to me and i mean it ❤️

i am jealous of the pillows you get to lay your head on when you sleep
because i wish it were my chest you would rest on so you could hear my heartbeat

i am jealous of the sheets you grab to keep you warm
because i wish i were there to hold you so you could feel the warmth of my body

I am homesick for a place I can no longer call home
i can no longer get accepted with wide loving open arms
the door is locked and no one no longer lives there
it is abandoned and cold just how you left my heart
homesick for a place where my soul was filled with joy and my heart with love
i am home sick for a place that no longer exists

delicious as any taste could be
yet sinful and bad to indulge in if I have too much
too much of you and I'd end up saying 7 Hail Marys before bed
got me running to confessions on Tuesday nights
just the thought of you and I'm already sinning
I gotta keep you a secret before word gets out
you're the only thing I want on my lips

i wish you were a book
so i can brag to everyone how wonderful and gracious your words are to me
I'd underline my favorite thing about you
and highlight the times where you'd make me smile
i wish you were a book so I could cherish you forever and never let you down on a bookshelf to collect dust
i wish you were a book so i could use you as an escape to get away from reality for awhile

i wish you were a book so that i can lick my finger to flip through pages the way you lick you lips when we kiss , passionately

i wish you were a book so you could be my number one favorite of all time

i've been drinking lately like there's a message at the end of every bottle
hopping to find one written about how I'll get my life together but it seems like I haven't been drinking enough to get to that message
or maybe the message is to quit while i'm ahead