I think it's so ******* funny when I try my hardest to keep someone in my life and they completely ******* off. I sit there and fight for you and I think about us constantly. I think about the fact that I actually said I love you to you. Then I think about how dumb I was. You told me you cared and obviously you didn't.
I've always hated acting like I was fine when I wasn't  but I did it for you because I honestly thought I loved you.
You made me feel so much better about myself then you basically ripped my heart out. Like no, I would have liked it a lot better if we just stayed friends the first time and you didn't let me keep falling for you.
I've given up so many friendships and relationships because I thought you were my forever. You SAID you were my forever but guess what! I was nothing to you. You never cared.
You've hurt me to the point of no return.
I hate everything you are and everything you were.
Your love was fake, your fake.
Your nothing to me.. And you will never be..
My forever..

I am not  promiscuous or lacks standards,
but I am sensitive to romance and passion,
even to the point, at times,
of lacking impulse control.
I love life,  
and I love living in the moment
and I love trying not to let experiences pass me by.
I am at times flirtatious in public,
which tends to make me extremely sensual
and wildly uninhibited behind closed doors.
In fact, when the timing is right,
I am probably one of the most passionate of people
you may ever get the opportunity to know...

Don't hand your love over to him.
Without me competing, baby.
For every smile, he places upon your face.
I'm the one to make it brighter.

I'm not intimidated by competition.
I welcome it, with the best intention.
I'm just saying, don't hand your love over to him.
Without me competing baby.
For ever joy, he brings to you.
I can place it in the distance.
This comes to you, without bragging.

You've only seen me on the edge of your eye sight.
But soon, you will see me, as the focus of your love.
The man, you will soon tell your friend about.

Yes, for everything, he does to please you.
I still believe, he will soon be a dream to you.

So, without me competing.
Don't hand your love over.

Tired is not the word
But I am too tired to figure out what is
Exhausted is more appropriate
Yet less deserved
For it is my own fault
Again
My indulgent escapades deserve no approval
Sympathy would satisfy
But would not be fair
I should suffer in silence

And probably go to sleep

If you’d ever known
How it feels to be left alone
You wouldn't have gone away
Breaking my heart like this
Crying through the night
The pillows witnessing the plight
Had you seen how the tears made me weak inside
You wouldn't have gone away
Breaking my heart like this
Having been left alone
Amongst so many unknown
The fear of falling down
Had you ever known
You wouldn't have gone away
Breaking my heart like this
Broken promises, forged emotions
The pain ripping through, tearing me apart
You walked away
Breaking my heart

I know I hurt you
I know you want retribution
For all I've done over the years
And that no amount of apologies
Can make up for my wrongs
But I regret them all
I learned from them though
I learned that *** is wretched without love
And one day I suppose
In making it all fair
You'll see that
I learned that love
Is more valuable than pride
In our time together
I forgave you
Took you back
Buried the hatchet
Because my love outweighed
My pain
And I suppose
It truly was I that loved most
And yet I know
You'd still put up a fight saying differently
So in this time I realized that
This life without you in it to comfort me
Is unbearable and my heart
Aches with the sorrow
The past taught me
That I can't give up
Even when it seems like
Its my only option
The past showed me that
When your down
You have to fight harder
Because you can't let the current
Sweep you away
My past is a hideous thing
And besides the time with you
I'd like to erase every bit
But at least i learned
At least the lessons
Gave me faith and kept me faithful
At least even if you never forgive me
You know your loved
At least you know
You'll always have a bed to come to
Even if its broken.

I just thought
When i asked you
What you wanted
You'd chose US
Rather than me and you
I thought when i said
Its too hard to let go
You'd say
So dont
I thought everything
Was okay after that phone call
At 2 in the morning
But i guess i was in denial too.

i remember when
that song was
just a song
and i didn't
think of you
every time it
came on
i remember when
that place was
just a place
and i didn't
see you there
every time i
decided to visit
but i don't
remember
a time i
thought of perfection
and didn't think
of
you