i dont wanna lie
i hate to
but i'm not really lying
i just can't face you
i admit it
i'm scared
i've given so much of myself
to people who just didnt care
but i'm past that now
and i can do my best
i just need you to keep me from falling out of step
and making a mess
i wish i could see myself
through your eyes
then i maybe i would feel
like it's not all a lie
i dont know
i make no sense
it doesnt make
a difference
all i am saying
is that im afraid 
that i will make
a dumb mistake
forgive me for
my indiscretion 
my secrets are all i have
in my possession

all you want is promises
you dont want reality
truth is you could have it all
and you still wouldn't be happy

all you want is promises
but i need to stay honest
so i won't make one to you
my promise to myself is strongest

praying to a god
i'm not sure exists
asking for the answers
to the questions that persist
because i know what it means
to feel like i cant be fixed
like regardless of how hard i try
something's amiss
what did i do to
deserve all of this
i know that i am strong
but i am tired of proving it

im no1s number 1 n thats 2 bad
its 3 am n im dying 4 u 2 luv me back

icky sticky 
trying to trick me
caught in your web
nursing where you bit me
itsy bitsy
calling it quitsy
i threaten to leave
but i know you wont miss me
spider liar
dont try to hide her
she's already caught
in the crossfire
this fighter's expired
i'm way too tired
just hurt me again
heartbreak for hire

it burns to stand beside you
even if you mean no harm
the heat of the situation
penetrates my safeguard
it hurts even when you
dont mean for it happen
choosing to befriend you
led to more pain than I'd ever imagined

leave me alone
somedays I just want to feel it all

feels like I'm loving you forever

Death
so small

all this love
so heavy

I can't die
without it

I won't die
now that I have it

feels like I'll love you forever