My voice trembles
words spill over lips chaotically
I want to fix my mistakes
and I want to explain
but my trembling voice makes all seem like lies
and the shaking voice that had felt like my own
smoothed out
letting the lies flow through
without my own consent

I don't dare to confront you
for the anger you hold shadows over the kindness in my heart
and corrupts all around you
so I'll stare
hopelessly in love
with the man that strikes at my gaze
and breaks hearts

A watchful eye
on a watchful night
where stars collide
and towers build on your eyes
sleep consumes you
ending your watch
and the stars finally die down
as the world has become silent

Why is it
that when you complained
about my words
and about my feelings
that once I stopped talking
and became numb
you screamed of the times that you loved
where I would talk and cry
as if I had chosen this
as if I wanted this