And I'm balancing on a tightrope
Happiness on the other side
Urging me too my feet
But beneath the tightrope
Is a hell I've fallen into way too many times
Good god
Let me be
Let me be free
Even though I'm falling

I'm so empty
Inside.
All I want is to love someone.
But it's like I can't feel anymore.

He tells me to tell him
When I am sad
But then I'd be telling him
Every day
Every hour
Every minute and second
I would tell him how I wished
I was dead
And he wouldn't understand
My sadness
And then he'd leave

He likes it when I arch my back
And ask him to give me more
He likes it when I gag on him
And shove down even more
He likes it when I bite my lip
And tease him a little more
He likes it when I cry silently
And don't open up to him any more.

And she barely even looks at me
This girl I'm in love with
Walks right by me and into
Her new lovers arms

Today makes it 3 months
For me and him
But I'm crying cause that means
It's 2 months for
Her and her

I could stick a blade
In my arm
And drag it across my skin
And not feel a thing