it hard to be someone else's star
you live like you're not belong
and smile like you're unhappy

you wish you were
but you are not
then why?

because you just love to
try,
try,
then you try for another try

you push yourself
you know not to
but for once, your mind and heart goes the same way

whispering your body to
"keep on trying"

in hope that
someday
you do.

Unselfish itself is difficult
Knowing the right thing to do
While weighing the best for you
is different, in understanding about
What other people might needs

They said it was easy
No it’s not
Knowing the pattern right in the eyes
Seeing all the clues and cliches
is like, knowing the difference
But blinded by all the merry

“Life never easy”
No one wants to admit that
For truly

But I do believe one thing
When there’s a way
There is a way
If there’s no way
Make your own way
If not, find the people
To show you the way

:'(

Is it weird to be sad When others are happy
Cause i am right now
It seems like everything goes wrong

Is it a wrong thing to be sad
When you hear about other Happiness
Am i jealous? Do i?

Is it weird When you desired about the thing you know you can’t have?
And you even feel mad about it
Cause you just can’t have it instantly

Is it wrong not to be in love with someone temporarily? Just because you’ve been hurt for like a thousand times, you tried so hard to stay, but you need healing so you just run away.

Is it wrong if you still miss the same love you’ve been fantasize about, the love that you wish you had somehow in someway.

Is it wrong to be complicated? Like you’ve been in love with the complicated things because it’s making you crazy in love with it.

Sooner or later
I just wish
I don't die

Word of confusedness when something's not right
Howling inside your mind like there's no solution
Y*elling and keep on begging for the answers
.
when you know, there's no answer for it*
.
so,why?

maybe i won't see any future with you
but i love the "maybe"-ness we might had
i want to feel an extraordinary love
i don't need the common love
maybe i'm naive
but i simply love all the chances that life gave
i want to feel it all
i want to try it all
with you or without you
i just want to bear it all
just hold my hands
i'll love you
with all of me
with all my heart
simple as that

i need love to escape
escape from this hurtful reality
reality that brings me down
down to depression
a meaningless obsession
and lot of tiring occasion

*never been thirsty like this before