I think about you
I know you think you're alone
I know you think no one understands

But, I think about you more than you think
I worry .

You are a beautiful human
I look up to you
The way you express yourself
The way you have everyone's attention
The way you make every story an amazing adventure
The way you feel things so deep
I admire you.

Don't fall I beg of you
Don't go there don't lose yourself in distractions in drugs in men in a dark twilight

But I'm just your friends and no matter how much I tell you this
It's not enough
I wish I was enough

I know I'm not enough
But I worry
I see it in your eyes
Your hiding more than anyone knows
Your hiding so much
God it breaks my heart
It aches my insides
But what can I do
I wish I was enough . . .

You are precious
You are precious
So precious

I doubt my own depression
I doubt my own tears
I doubt my own fears
is any of them real
what's real for me is unclear
What's unclear is who I hold dear

I doubt my own existence
I doubt if I want you away or near
I stand alone and alone I fall  
and when I'm down  I have no one to call

And I doubt my doubts if maybe I was stronger I would have more .

No please I enjoy your *******
Keep goin don't worry no ones doubting ****
Your act is perfect
Attentions diverted
To where ever you want it
You must have a magic wand man
Or maybe there's a hiddin cam
This must be a joke ****
Earth spinning around you
Looks like you like it too
Man I got nothing on you
Lie all you want baby boo
Just not when am around you
Sincerely F''' you !

I

don't

want

to  think

the same thoughts any more

I

don't

want

to be here any more

Can I leave

please

can I leave

oh  please

can I leave

can I wander

till I stumble upon where I belong

they would know me

and this life

my life wouldn't feel so wrong

when I'll stumble upon where I belong

The world will be in shades of pink and purple

hazy ...

Hello
hello

echo. .   .     .       .

I can hear you sad soul
I can hear your lonely self
Have you locked yourself
in a jail cell for the sake of appearances
So you wouldn't need anyone
unless they come to visit
You show them how sane you are
cause it's a visit

come in whenever you want
come in to my soul to my mind
yea it's nice when I'm fine
Where lights and roses intertwined
but you don't come when it's closed
you never knock on my doors

And now I sit here in this jail cell
where I don't need you
it's pathetic but at least I don't need you
I sit here with the lights closed
trying to fix it on my own
trying to call out on my own
Like
hello
hello
all I hear is the

echo. .  .    .       .


I'm waiting for a visit
So the lights would turn on
But I wouldn't let you know
that they were ever off
So you wouldn't be scared off
So you would still come to visit

All I do is define and analyse
everything everyone everytime .

define and analyse
label and paraphrase
like my life story is a *******
SAT study case.

Whether or not you think about it
I still probably do
I've kept you in a box in the corner of my mind
I still remember you like a Polaroid picture
faded and forever still
like you never changed

Whether or not we talked everyday
or just once in a while
I'll still remember the way you are

whether or not I lost you
or you're still mine
whether or not we fought
once upon a time

I still probably
I still think about you
We were once good
we used to smile
and at some point
I understood your mind
and I'll always still remember you
every person that walked in on my life

لأجلك يا مدينة الصلاة أصلي
لأجلك يا بهية المساكن يا زهرة المدائن
يا قدس يا قدس يا مدينة الصلاة
عيوننا إليك ترحل كل يوم
تدور في أروقة المعابد
تعانق الكنائس القديمة
و تمسح الحزن عن المساجد
يا ليلة الأسراء يا درب من مروا إلى السماء
عيوننا إليك ترحل كل يوم و انني أصلي

الطفل في المغارة و أمه مريم وجهان يبكيان
لأجل من تشردوا
لأجل أطفال بلا منازل
لأجل من دافع و أستشهد في المداخل
و أستشهد السلام في وطن السلام
سقط الحق على المداخل
حين هوت مدينة القدس
تراجع الحب و في قلوب الدنيا أستوطنت الحرب
الطفل في المغارة و أمه مريم وجهان يبكيان و أنني أصلي

الغضب الساطع آتٍ و أنا كلي ايمان
الغضب الساطع آتٍ سأمر على الأحزان
من كل طريق آتٍ بجياد الرهبة آتٍ
و كوجه الله الغامر آتٍ آتٍ آتٍ
لن يقفل باب مدينتنا فأنا ذاهبة لأصلي
سأدق على الأبواب و سأفتحها الأبواب
و ستغسل يا نهر الأردن وجهي بمياه قدسية
و ستمحو يا نهر الأردن أثار القدم الهمجية
الغضب الساطع آتٍ بجياد الرهبة آتٍ
و سيهزم وجه القوة
البيت لنا و القدس لنا
و بأيدينا سنعيد بهاء القدس
بايدينا للقدس سلام آتٍ


It is for you O city of the prayer that I pray
It is for you O splendid home, O flower of the cities
O Jerusalem O Jerusalem O Jerusalem O city of the prayer
Our eyes are set out to you everyday
They walk through the porticos of the temples
Embrace of the old churches
And take the sadness away from the mosques
O night of Al asra O path of those who left for the sky
Our eyes are set out to you everyday and I pray

The child is in the cave and his mother is Myriam two faces crying
For those who roamed
For the children without a house
For those who resisted and were martyred at the gates
And the peace was martyred in the homeland of the peace
And the law tumbled at the gates of the city
When Jerusalem city fell
Love left and in the heart of the world the war was settled
The child is in the cave and his mother is Myriam two faces crying
and I pray

The glaring anger is arriving and I am sure of it
The bright anger is arriving, I will command the grief
From everywhere, it will arrive riding the steeds of fear,
As if the overwhelming face of God it will arrive
The gates of our city will not be locked anymore so I am going to pray
I will knock the gates and I will liberate them
My face will be cleaned by the holy water of the Jordan river
And the effects of the barbarism of the past will be erased O Jordan River
The glaring anger is arriving riding the steeds of the fear
And will defeat whom is in power
This is our home and Jerusalem belongs to us
And in our hands we will celebrate the splendor of Jerusalem
by our hands the peace will return to Jerusalem

Walk through the dark streets
Walk through the glittering lights
I walk with you
will you walk with me
Rip up my shell
Rip up my shell
And see the garden inside
Our secret garden
With wild flowers, roses and butterflies
With the flickering lights and the golden fountains
Walk with me and you will experience
A defenition of life that will shift your existance
Be the fire of my *****

Walk with me
Come here and save me
I'll make you laugh, mad, crazy
Make me laugh make me mad make me crazy
Invade my space invade my existance
Inturrupt my conciousness
Be the theif I can't seem to steal you
So steal me love me invade me

Why are you standing there looking so beautiful
Why are you standing still walk with me
Be the fire of my *****
Break my shell
Like I tried to break yours

Focused
aimed
I'll keep going straight

Side blinded
no time to hate
cause if I let the thought slip for a second
I'll honestly throw all my energy to waste
cause you keep steering up my emotion
I might be exploding
And you might just have a taste

So I'm ganna keep focused
Determined
and going straight

Even though ur right there I'm ganna let it go before it begins let it go before it ends badly . I ain't human for now . I dunno how . But your effect will disappear

and I'mma keep going

And you wonder why blood was spilt
And about the wars that have killed
There's things in life you can't accept
You would fight till you die
Than stand a day in its mess

And you wonder why blood was spilt
And about the wars that have killed

Freedom has a high price
And it's not given
It's taken by the oppressed

And you dont have to look far
At the world's most horrific tragedies
Look at your own anxieties

When you act like your living
But every vain in your body
Is shivering.

Cause you're supressed by capitalism
Working day and night
And your opinion is not for the giving.

Nor are you allowed to be sad
Nor are you allowed to be mad
This is how life is, they tell you
This is how life is, they convience you
Don't be a woss
They tell you
Be strong by following me
While I follow what they want me to be
And they follow what they were taught to be
By people who followed their own misery
Thinking this is how life should be

You don't wonder anymore
When you have tasted it
The depression the pain and the downgradment
It drives you insane

You don't wonder
Why the blood was spilt
And about the wars that have killed

Cause freedom has a high price
And it's not given
Its demanded by the oppressed

So, are you up for the battle
Or your ganna shut up, and cry every night?
Down your pills ?
Roll a blunt ?
Down that drink ?
Then go numb ?
And go with the cattle ?

Freedom is the stars and the moon to the night sky

and what it a sky with no moon and stars ?

Dark .

1st grade I held your hand
And we became best friends
I would've done anything for you
I fought the boys for you
I came home every day with bruises
You know kids can play harsh sometimes.

Highschool I would've died for you
I ran away from home with you
We were unstoptpable in our heads
The world was ours
It was a matter of time
Till we became heros
Till we became everything we wanted to be

But as an adult now
I get it
Making friends isn't as easy as asking you if you like Britney Spears
People have grown with hate
Blame it on your parents
Blame it on the world
That did you wrong so many times
But that's you now
You've maintained the unstoppable image in your head by losing emotion by bringing hate
It's never ganna be the  same

I get it now
It's never ganna be a ride or die
It's complicated
It's foggy
It's never as pure
It's how the world works

Or is it how the world works
Should I surrender should I be that person
But I can't I physically, anotomically can't
Am I a loser
Or did I win
I don't know anymore

Friends enemies aren't as clear now
We are all an in between

Time is ticking and I'm still here I did not become who I want to be
In fact who I want to be is lost in the clutter of how it's supposed to be
I'm not sure if I know me anymore

I lost my inner circle
I lost a part of my anatomy
Atleast we were lost together
But you're not worth it you were always an enemy
I guess I was just trying to be right
To do what's right
Till I realized there is no right or wrong
But did I win or did I lose everything

I don't know anymore
Friends and enemies do not exist now
We are all in between

Purity lost

Ya I'm talking to the 50 year old guy at the bar
Telling him how growing up is nothing but a big fat *** scar
But **** it

Ya Im waking up at 6 am but Im still drinking like its the weekend
But **** it

Ya Im the one dancing on my own without anyone even playing a song
But **** it

Ya I cut everyone out of my life
But Im speaking to this drunk old guy and he seems fine
So **** it

Ya Im spending every penny Im making.
Even though I got to take care of who made me
They're growing old and its crazy
But **** it

Ya Im holding hands with the bartender
Ya I texted my crush on tender
Ya I sent a creepy fangirl essay to that singer
But **** it

Ya Im kinda depressed and Im creating such a mess
But **** it

Ya this system is making all of us opressed
And Im a slave working day and night
But still ******* my work up
Im trying to pull it together but they think Im not even tryin'
SO **** IT

Ya Im screaming my lungs out at you saying **** this world
And **** IT
So **** IT

Ya Im 22 and you think I'm being over dramaticly blue
But **** it

Ya my anxiety is kind of paralyzing me right now and I can't move
But **** it

Ya I seem weird cause I am weird
So **** IT

AND YA IM SCREAMING MY LUNGS OUT SAYING **** IT

ya I might be damaging myself
But I dont know any other way yo exist
So **** ... it

Words spill out of my damaged lungs
And smoke comes your way

Your eyes are like sweet sweet gin mixed with being numb

If I wasnt this broken and drunk, I would've felt so dumb

But here you are and here I am.

Soaked in what can be done.

If you come closer I can dive into the moment and forget that I'm done.

Cause your eyes are like sweet sweet gin and I wanna be numb.

It's an endless night

Makes you wonder do things really end

Magic is a beautiful game of pretend

Sense isn't always needed

See the glitter in the skies  

meet it !

And stay forever and a day underneath it

Till you breath it and believe it

Beauty lies and your lies are beautiful

Words wrapped in diamonds

killing my sense

your glitter must be my end

Grin till the wrinkles find their place
find their space to mark their trace
The trace of every struggle you couldn't get through
So you grin, grin so they can notice you
Have you seen what I've been through ?
And so you grin to make them understand understand how steep this uphill battle is
Grin grin in their faces, just in case they have missed
Grin till it wrinkles your face
Grin till it leaves a trace
Have you not seen what I've been through ?
If you haven't my face is the proof .

Burnt out
Drained ..

I have felt like this before
But now it's with a hint of giving up

I am burnt out
I am drained

My love has been ****** out
My passion has been destroyed
My self-image has been tarnished
I feel vanished from my own mind

Famished for life
But not willing to live it

I'm burnt out .

3:15 AM
And I'm searching for meaning
I'm ******* searching for meaning
Drained exhausted
But I still got 'bout 3 more chapters to study
And I don't want to study
Cause I'm searching for meaning
It would be easier if this meant more for me
I secretly wish I didn't have these blessings
Cause I'm searching for meaning
I'm not convinced ..
How lame is that
I'm not convinced .
I hate that girl in the movie that keeps falling
The emotionally ****** up
Keeps ******* up
Wants attention
Wants help
dependant
She keeps falling
And I keep falling
I hope I'm not that character
want to be the badass that grew cold and strong
But it seems like I'm growing weak
The future is soo bleak
It's like I'm playing hide and seek with myself
I keep disappearing on myself
Like where did I go
I used to be so strong
So hopefull
My horoscope says im the most optimistic sign    
They must be lyin'
Cause you know that feeling
When you just wanna stay sad
You don't want to get over it cause it's hurting you that bad
Now where's the optimisim in that ?    
Feels like I'm a crumbling soul    0
I've grown so bitter and so old
I'm creating drama
That's what my mom says
My sign says I hate drama
Lol
They must've mistaken my birth date
Let's just hope tomorrow I find me again
Cause I'm starting to enjoy the pain
and I don't even seem to be good at writing poems anymore
Must be goin insane ..

It's sickening how we behave
it's thickening my blood
as I feel the wave
splash through my body
it's taking me away

cause it's sickening how we behave

Everyone loves you when your on top
but wouldn't do the effort
they wouldn't go out of their way for you

My stomach turns
it turns
I can't bare it
I can't hold in this anxiety
like ants crawling through my veins

I love too much then I hate too much
I've got too much to do
too much on my mind
it's too much


But somehow my life seems empty
like I'm never doing enough
it's contradictory it's crazy
it's stupid
I can't sit still
I can't undo this grin
on my face

I'm sick
so so sick of this

Cause it's sickening how we behave
My life is blessed with so much
but honestly it feels like I'm in a grave

this anxiety deep in my core
isn't going away
it's here to stay
Blinded through this life
trying to feel my way

And right now I feel sick to my stomach ..
Could be a sign that I'm going the wrong way .

Eyes looking right at me

Lost can you find me

Walks slow

hands cold

It's all on her mind she hasn't let it go

It dances inside her

the loudness inside her

the questions inside her

she hasn't let it go

Amplify the distractions

Strong standing

lose yourself in distractions

He called me up at midnight monday
Talking to me like we have met in another life
telling me how he wants me to be his future wife
telling me about all the trouble he is going through
telling me about his secrets that I never knew

I never gave him a penny of my love
and he got attached
he doesn't really know me and he got attached
to the mystery of me created by his mind
he got attached to his own solution to his own issues
Giving his own thoughts a name that happens to be mine

but the truth is if he ever listened or took the time to know me
he wouldn't be soo attached
like all the people I opened up to
gave my heart to and they threw it in the trash
If he knew how I laugh like a monkey
and how my lungs are burned like ash
how I wouldn't fit his thoughts at alll
how I'm insecure
how I'm never  sure about anything
how I overdose on everything
how I'm messy and irresponsible
how I can never tell a full story
how I can never flirt
how easily I'm open to getting hurt
how clumsy, weird and awkward I am
I told'm
agh I swear I'm not that interesting
atleast not to someone like you

but that intrigued him more
And he was tipsy
he said you will miss me when I'm gone
I told him we are not on the same page at allll

He said tell me one thing
do you love me
and I said no
he said you do cause your still talking to me
and I felt like I wanted to slap some sense into him
I really don't want to hurt you
but where your mind is talking you
I swear it's not true
but he didn't listen
he didn't call to listen

he called to give in to his thoughts
he couldn't let it go
his thoughts he gave my name
Not me
but to him it's all the same
And that's when it got lame

he said I want you
and I almost screamed
I don't want you !
hung up

And now
I'm sorry It had to be that way

Hold on .
While I put on that image

the image of me that doesn't seem to be insecure
The one you want to be

Hold on .
While I fit in
it's just ganna take all my strength created by my weakness and a minute

hold on .
I did this before
it can't be that I can't do it no more

hold on .
I know I'm losing soul
But I know you won't love me for my core
if my image is all over the floor

So hold on .
hold on just a minute
while I pull it together

Hold on .
a hot mess isn't what I'm going to be forever

So Hold on .
while I pull it together

I've got this bag on my back
and no where to unpack
Homeless
I've got this bag filled with problems webbed by my confusion of emotions
Homeless
begging on the streets for a notice
There's so many people walkin'
they help out often
But they never gave me a home to unpack
cause I got a troubling track
On my back
in my bag
No where to unpack
these emotions
cause I'm living homeless

It comes and goes like thunder in a fiery storm
A roller coaster ride
That is my mind

A state of constant is not the norm
More like whirlwinds and constant storms
And a peak of sunrise before the weather drifts

My bones shaking from tiredness of constant defense
Constant battle and constant fear
The mountains are high
So I climb and I climb
But It doesn't feel like I'm getting near

And a thought of you might seem like constant bliss
But you might be just a jeep in the middle of the wind
That will take me to another place
That has it's own taste
It's own storms
It's own painful trace

And you might be a mirage
Cause the sun is shining too bright
And my head is gone loopy
And I need anything to soothe me

And we will see
What it might be

But hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have

But I have it.

Glowing concrete
But a worn out side walk
Cause those lights would make the blind see
So bright it resembeles eternity
And enternal light is where i want to be
Eternal light is where im bound to be
Eternal light of this old club called 23

This bar stoll is bound to break
If i sit on it with all my mistakes
on my shoulders is everything i could take
And cant take
But im blending in with the music my heart beats fast with or without this music
I see you and i ask you to abuse it
This emptiness that i came with
Undress this mess
And dance till death

But they tell me this club was closed since 1994
So how'd you open this door
This club was burnt down to the floor
The people who died here you can still hear them roar
Since 1994
Their ghost still roams the halls
They say you can check in but you can never leave

But your image I breath
So can you please leave me here ..

Hours pass by
9pm  feeling great
1 am it's getting late
3 am your alone in your bed feeling the hate
of nothing but the thoughts you chose to think

this world is way too complex to understand
and I can never see the world from where you stand
neither can I teach you how to stand
when your all alone
And I might not be there to catch you when you fall
even if I wanted to

I just hope you look up in the sky
without asking why
look up in the sky*

and I hope you realize
That it was never meant to be perfect
but we were born to live this life with purpose

Don't glamourise busy-ness
Don't glamourise exhausion

Don't be mislead
And think that it's home

To being great.


You  are meant to live each moment
Like it's your own
Stare into the distance
Dance and lay in bed
Work then get bored
Love then move on
Grow and get old.

Accomplishment is a perception
of what you want

Take it easy
Take it slow
And if you want run fast
And lose control
But don't exhaust yourself  
For things you don't want

It's your life your feelings your way
Your time your soul.

So do it how ever you want it
Cause there's no rights or wrongs.
Just try your best to consider others
And carry on.

And if we traveled

                                Traveled the world

And if we drove Fast

                                 Windows down

                                                           Music loud

And if we had Time..  Time ...   Time ..


And all the money we wanted


How would it feel ?

Would it feel better than now

Or would the sadness still come around ?

As low as this world might drag me
and the hardship attack me

I believe

I believe

In the ones who's voices ache my heart

in the light that they spark

Oh I believe

Even if you strip me of all peace
As I sniff the gun powder
and I bleed

oh I believe

in our hearts
in our souls
there's a garden that keep on growing
even when ruined
it keep regenerating
through the weeds
it keeps growing
Sun flowers and greens

Oh I believe

in the people
and in you god

oh I believe

in the spark that lights from the roughness of the rocks hitting each other

in the sting that you feel when you care about another

We were made to care

We are made to believe

And

I do

I do

I believe ..

I try to come up with words that will impress you
. . . . .
If you ever read this  *

I'm sorry if it seems like I'm messing with you
. . . . .
But I said what I felt *

I'm sorry if that bothers you .
maybe we shouldn't be friends ?

I'm sorry I can't fix any of this
I need to fix me instead
....

See I have this huge burden .. no no BURDENS on my chest

it's suffocating me to death

I can barely open my eyes without flowing tears that will unrest

.......

so I'm sorry I'm sorry if I'm bothering you  

Was it cause I asked to be considered by you

Was it cause I said I can't go out with you

Was it cause I couldn't pay for the same **** that you do

Was it cause I can't take your ******* with a smile

Please explain to me , why I shouldn't be irritated

when you're irritating me

Because YOU ******* COMMAND ME ?

Write the script of how I should be

I'm sorry you think you have problems
And that I'm one of it

But If I'm your problem then believe me
Your life is a bless

.....

So leave me be .

If you can't help me .

Then just leave me be .

*Cause I can't help but be me. *

As irritating I am . As noxious as I am . As yellow as I am . As blue as I am.

And no you can't change me .

And no it doesn't seem like you can or want to help me.

You don't trust me
You underestimate me
And because of the insignificance of my feelings to you
you can't and won't  understand me

And I would try to fix that
But right now I can't  even fix myself
....

See I have these BURDENS on my chest

it's suffocating me to death

I can barely open my eyes without flowing tears that will unrest
....

So let me be
If you can't *help me

You've signed and sealed your soul
all over my identity.

And now they see you
in me .

I know you felt it too
The electric vibe around you
It was hard to ignore
And I knew it showed
How whenever I'm around you
I'm not in control

I dreamt about you
and it felt true
Real like my reality is fake
And the dream is the truth
Like not having you had no reasons like everything in the world was okay
I felt Contempt around you

Complete

Whole

I felt real
But my conscious is over you
My limits erased my feelings
My efforts of forgetting you worked
I forgot
But my unconsciousness is clutched on
With its steep claws in my heart
So every night I dream about you

Shame on me

But I dream about you

Shame on me

But I still dream about you

I'm over you

I just dream about you

Heartbeats
& Technology
You got to tell me what your saying
Cause my heart beat ain't feelin it
And technology got me drifted
I don't feel you
I feel the music
I do see you
But it's useless    
Cause if I stoped would you hear me out    
If you listened I would shout            
But your too busy
And thinking too much got me dizzy
Everything is just too hazy
Im sober but im feeling faded
Like look down there
As I stare at my body talking
I see an explosion
Can you see it
I'm trying to show you but you can't see it

Inhaled that burn down my windpipe
Spread through my bronchi to every tiny alveoli
like fire spreading through a forest
reaching every leaf  

feel that singe
Concentrate on that sweet pain
that stain it leaves on my fingertips
A trace of something on me
Proving I'm not empty

Trace of the war I have inside
Shooting those bullets and from my self I run and hide
Because Smoke, Gun powder and tar taste the same
As I'm setting my inside on flames

just to make the burn in my heart seem less dominating
I burn my lungs
and by the end of this night
I finished a pack of cigarettes  
Leaving my body in the destruction of the aftermath  
You can hear my insides cry like a soft melody of jazz

Who really wins a war
after so much loss
but I still fight  
till I can fight no more

I've learned to fight in this world with all my strength
But all I really want to send you my love
All I really want is to trust everyone
All I really want is to make those around me happy

All I really want is dust

It disappears

All I want is myself in a piece

And all I want is to give everyone I love a piece of me

a piece of me that's happy that brings them joy

But it's not enough
for you
While I lost me

it's not enough for you
but I lost me

I hope I bring you joy
I hope you have felt this love
I hope you have felt my trust
I hope ..
I hope sometimes it's enough

See I replay that silly video that I have
Over and over and over

I might have created a connection deeper than the one you have
Cause I keep replying that video and I laugh

But right now you've gone MIA
And I keep reaching to you
Cause I have so much I wanna say

But you got your ropes tide loose
And you've got so many you can choose

But don't you know that you define me now
don't you know that you've marked me now
don't you know that I'm fragile ..

I don't want to go through this hassle
but I tie my ropes tight
and you're the one that let yourself inside
inside of my soul
I had no Control
I let my feelings rule

But do I want to let my mind rule ?
That kind of life makes no sense to me
it's the love in this life that will set you free
while  my love for you has caged me
Cause
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
what to do when you're not here

so I keep replying this video of us
and I laugh
and I have created a deeper connection than the one you have

And all of this might not be true
but I just .. I just miss you

you can't play me like that
keep giving me hope then disappear like that
and I can't say that
cause you don't let me through
even though I let you


Limbo is the state you have me stuck at
so I keep replying this video of us
and I laugh ..

love me

Like I'm your dopamine .

Endorphin

Oxytocin

Serotonin

and I will be

Imagine all the people living their lives in peace woah oh~

imagine if my touch can bring you peace
if all my love can put you at ease
if you let go of this aggression
if you had no sins to be confessin'

Imagine if laying here would be enough
if our lives were never this rough
if all this smoking didn't making me cough
if all we needed was love

imagine if you could live in a place we can't compare or explain
All the crazy people were considered to be sane
if we could fly with no planes
If all people were good , no one is being judged, no sinners or saints

imagine all the people living their lives in peace ~
Heaven exists within you, if you search deep
Let this world go , come on take the leap

I am here
I see me
I feel me
I am here ..
I am here ..

I've missed me that was lost in loving you
But now I'm here I'm complete with out you

Émotions are a weird existence
Where do they come from
From our brains, from our being?

If they come from us then how do we conflict them?

Emotions are flawed
But somehow they are the most pure
The most true you.

I love you but you hurt me
And I got over you but I didn't

I feel bruised but I feel crave for you
I feel crave for our memories
I feel pride and I don't want to talk to you
I feel like I shouldn't
But I did
I feel you are bound to hurt me
I feel like you don't understand me
But I feel like no one understands me the way you do
I feel love to the detail.
To the way you word things
To the way you swirl the pencil between your fingers
To the way you awkwardly hug me
But I can still feel you more than the best hugs I got.

Emotions are a weird existence
But so are we
Emotions are conflicting in nature
But so are we
And I'm not sure what to make out of it
But the craving emotions overshadows me
And even if another emotion or in other words "thought" comes to me
I can't help but go with the most powerful one
Even if I tell myself not to
That would just be another emotion
Over shadowed

Emotions are like cancer cells
Your body fights them
But rarely wins

And the emotion of you
Has infected me

I have to be what I want to be logicalize everything around me
you fit well but now you don't
So I move on and to be what I want to be
I put the reasons but they don't seem enough
I have too much to handle and letting you in
feels like giving up
So I move on to be what I want
My ocean is deep but I'll never tire from taking the lead
I've got to be what I want
don't you dare judge me
I've got to be
what I want
you have to be
what I want

I miss him
so who are you to understand
I want perfection
so who are you to understand
I've got to be what I want

Even when I fall I will stand
cause I've got to be what I want

When love turns to a rope slowly tightening around your neck
When it makes your stomach turn but it's not butterflies
when you are exposed
stripped down from all your acts of self boosting
When they've seen you raw
Uncovered all your flaw
and now everything you do is a risk

They might just turn their cheek once
and it will hurt so deep
cause they got so deep into you
just a scratch will leave a scar
Aggravated by your own feelings of love
you can't stand it yet, you cant stand giving them up

And now you know if they stopped loving you, they stopped loving you for EXACTLY who you are