The night air had never made me feel so lonely

Walking this path without my one and only

Hand in hand we use to stroll so carefree

Now the quiet reminds the soul that it's only me

Cold wraps around me, seeping into my bones

Hope it would numb me so I wouldn't feel so alone

They say after your love passes you can feel them near

But I'd be warm and happy if you were here

Snow covers my loose hair, tickling my ears

The night is so quiet, awakening my fears

Giving me time to think of what use to be

Can't even take a walk to be free of your memory

Everywhere I turn something reminds me of the past

Your impacted my heart so much I'm afraid the pain will last

Snowflakes all around making the pathway to our spot a white dream

Remember how in the summer we'd run until we got to the stream

We'd strip bare and jump in

Not worrying about anything, not knowing this all would end

I lay down now letting cold surround me and closing my eyes

Spreading my arms, making a angel and pretending to fly

How I want to fly to you

I want all that we had wanted to come true

Go back in time and save you from yourself

So stubborn, you always refused help

One more weak swipe of the arms, I stop my wings

I try to listen closely to hear if the angels will sing

Sorrowful tune for the emptiness I feel inside

I need to start accepting, all I seem to do is hide

Shaky breath I stand up and tilt my head up toward the sky

With a quiet whisper I send you a goodbye

One
Two
Four?
Hmm..

(Three silly
You’re mad)

Mad I am
Mad I'll stay
Trapped in my mind
Never to stray

(Don't you get lonely?)

No my dear
Don't you hear?

(Hear what?)

Voices all around
So much sound!
Never lonely
No not I

(Speak the truth mister)

Oh I never lie
Truth is as truth does

(What does it do?)

Well it lies of course

Tell me you want me behind Closed doors
To the world though I'm known as the town *****
Say you'd be crazy to claim me in front of the public eye
I say if you didn't want me then all you told me were lies
I'm not someone who is ashamed of my past
If you had a problem why did you play it like you wanted us to last
So I'm a little young, you knew that going in
Stop acting like I'm the only one who made all the sins
You didn't have to come to me at night
Whispering sweet nothings, crawling between my thighs
Take your lies before I rip out your heart
Skin you and stuff you, display you like art

Pull me to my knees with your unexpected blows
Stealing my breath before I scream so nobody knows
You make everything hurt and bleed
Bounding my soul refusing to let me be freed
I need a out but I know there is no point for me to live
I have tried, I have failed, and I have nothing left to give
You remind me of that everyday
Tearing at my lost soul refusing to stray
I try to get back up with a tired breath
Another blow reminds me that I have nothing left
I have failed hopelessly, bye my sweet eternity
You remind me that I belong to this agony

Here is the soil where he kneeled making my heart do flips

A ring in his hand and a promise on his lips

So young and pure were we

Full of passion, how we felt so free

I said Yes, he said forever

My love was a dreamer, niavie but clever

Bombs did strike, men left

Mine followed suit with the promise on his breath

Sometimes promises prove to be moot, unable to be kept

Not every wish can be met

He was lost, a victim of the cause

One of many, there wasn't even a pause

Fighting continued, my heart did weep

When it was over I thought of the promise that he could not keep

Nothing to be done but to live

My life went on but I had no love to give

Heart was lost with him overseas

As I stand where he had kneeled, I feel him on the breeze

My love, so far away

I can not let go, so with me you stay

It's not sleeping like a dead man that terrifies me
Its waking up to remember that I am one

Drip
My blood
Drip
Runs freely
Drip
From the wound
Drip
In my chest
Drip
Split open by Love
Drip
Took what he wanted
Drip
Then left me broken
Drip
Promised to catch me
Drip
Then let me fall
Drop

Hardly enough time to write
Put down in words how I feel inside
Lonely and confused
Sore and tired of getting bruised
Not on the skin
But somewhere deep within
I have felt myself slowly withdrawing
Begging my inner voice to ignore the final calling
Saying take a deep breath and forget the girl
How can I do that if she was my world
Only concern was her for such a long time
Now she's gone and I can't seem to unwind
Myself from the tangled mess she made of my heart
I need to move on, but instead I'm falling apart

I make a living, by farming and grit.
I make a living on crud and spit
Spit into the hands
Dirt on the shoe
A farmers hand playing the farmer blues.