I take you all in

I close my eyes and with a lump in my throat I send it all to you. The way my chest swelled when I think of the memories we've made.

Your lips turn at their edges and I know love is real because it comes out of my breath and you took it deep into your lungs.

but two things are imminent

death and the day I break your heart

I like to close my eyes
because
it makes me feel
invisible
not like my body disappears but
all of my emotions shine through my eyes and when
no one can
see them it's like
my sadness doesn't exist and sometimes
that's what I need to believe because
when the days feel too long and time goes too fast for
me to keep up I
stare at the ground
when I can't focus on anything else and it's the only thing that leaves me
grounded.

Sometimes I
look into the mirror
and nothing looks

back

but a pair of
blank eyes

that

take more than a

moment

to recognize

who they are looking at.