I don't really know how to feel.
There is nothing I can do, you are gone. This is real.

This overwhelming feeling of knowing I cannot hide.
My thoughts are dark, I feel lonely inside.

I miss your homemade cakes and warm inviting smile.
The inevitability of death, is it really worthwhile?

Why do we feel sad about losing people we love,
Surely we should be pleased.
For they no longer have to suffer,
The pain has eventually been eased.

But what if it was not pain,
What if it was unfair.
One moment they was with you,
Now no longer there.

It makes me sad to think,
I will never see you again.
But I refrain from thinking,
In case I go insane.

Although I do not cry often
I've lost all faith in day.
Although blue skies are supposed to be coming,
All I can see is grey.