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5.4k · Jan 2014
Audition
Lola Roe Jan 2014
Salt tears,
False smile,
Quivering cheeks,
In denial.

No control,
Twitching limbs,
Holding onto,
Unlikely dreams.

Boxed in room,
White walls,
Trees in hand,
Confidence falls.

Walk slow,
Hold breath,
Hold on,
Step by step.

Name said,
Swayed speech,
Judged more,
Heavy feet.

Pace out,
Confidence falls,
White walls,
Boxed inside.

Failed.

No pride.

Same again,
New day,
Nothing changed.

I dream.
Continue to dream.
I'm a machine.
I shall succeed.

You won't stop me.
4.8k · Jan 2014
Doctor, Doctor
Lola Roe Jan 2014
Doctor, Doctor
Who are you?
You don't know me
What can you do?

Patronise me,
Make me feel like ****,
Give me my meds,
Tear me down
Bit by
Bit.

Doctor, Doctor,
Why are you here?
You locked me away,
Creating my biggest fear.

LET ME OUT,
I scream, I scream,
I look to the ceiling,
I dream, I dream.

Doctor, Doctor,
You said you'd help me,
You're a liar too,
Shapes is all I see.

White, White,
I miss this I do,
You took away my love,
Doctor, I blame you.

Doctor, Doctor,
Be my friend,
Just let me die,
This needs to end.

Escape.
Tap, Tap.
Scrape.
Sniff.
Awake.


Thank you my friend.

**The End.
1.2k · Jan 2014
Run forward not back
Lola Roe Jan 2014
Cracked foundation,
Stone cold,
Here is my story,
Which I left untold.

Battling through,
Pain and fake smiles,
Walking alone,
Miles apon miles...

Fighting my demons,
Fighting the wind,
Hair in my mouth,
Goosebumps on my skin.

As I look up,
My eyes open wide,
Shaken and blue,
I walk inside.

Smoke in the air,
Sugar on my lips,
Flashback of memories,
Of all the things which I've missed.

I see my picture,
Hung up high on the wall,
I break down in tears,
To the ground I fall.

I raise my head,
A woman I see,
This isn't my mother,
But who is she!?

Her face so white,
She knows who I am,
She screams 'Daniel',
This woman understands,

I reach for the door,
I hear a loud cry,
I turn to see,
Daddy's crying eyes.

I run into his arms,
All my pain disappeared,
No more worry,
No more fears.

I hold on tight,
I can't let go,
I regret my mistakes,
This Daddy does know.

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Running away,
From doing wrong,
Isn't the answer,
You must be strong.

See Daddy said to me,
'See life as black and white,
Something's come easy,
Sometimes you must fight.'

Fight for you,
Fight for what you believe,
Live your life to the full,
Love, laugh and dream.
1.1k · Jan 2014
Mystery Monster
Lola Roe Jan 2014
He's got darkness in his eyes,
Like Jackson in disguise,
He's tall and wide,
Someone not easy to hide,
He's got dried out lips,
Lips you'd dread to kiss.
He's got black hair in his nose,
Yellow crust between his toes,
He's got veins on his thighs
That beer belly type of guy...

He is strong and powerful,
He made me feel so small,
He was going to **** me,
He wouldn't let me free,
He pressed his skin on mine,
I let out a loud cry.
No one could hear me,
No one saved me!

Stop.

I speak no more.
948 · Jan 2014
Starry Eyed
Lola Roe Jan 2014
Stars in my eyes,
Shining bright,
Enchanted by the world,
So crystal clear and white,

I saw beauty in the world,
Never feared of the unknown,
Always believed in happiness,
Never dreamt of being alone,

I dreamed of castles and jewels,
Dancing and smiles,
In a pink princess dress,
And walking down the aisle,

I was a young girl,
In a world too big for her eyes,
In world with more bad than beauty,
More people stupid than wise,

I grew to learn through mistakes,
Mistakes that took the shine,
Darkness over took me,
And left only disappoint in my eyes,

I believed the people around me,
Enough for them to bring me down,
Everyone against me,
No longer a little princess with a crown,

What i never understood,
Was why do people crush your dreams?
What is wrong with believing,
In all unlikely things.

See there's no harm in hope,
No harm in being happy and free,
No harm in dancing,
And filling the world with glee.

There is no reason to be sad,
There is no need to hide your heart,
The little child inside you,
Should have stayed with you from the start.

Forget all of the bad,
The heartache and the pain,
Remember to when you was seven,
When their was nothing to explain,

Everything was easy,
You enjoyed the ride,
Life was a playground,
And you had *stars in your eyes
.
913 · Feb 2014
Escape
Lola Roe Feb 2014
I want to feel the sun on me,
I want to feel the breeze,
I want to feel the freedom,
God I beg you please,

I want to feel sand between my toes,
I want to see palm trees,
I want to lay in the ocean,
God I beg you please,

I want to breathe pure air,
I want to inhale beauty,
I want to find myself,
And see kindness instead of cruelty,

I want to be alone,
I want to relax my soul,
I want to forget my troubles,
And leave the past at home.

God I beg you please,
Give me something new,
Give me a life worth living for,
Set me free.
839 · Jan 2014
Forgotten
Lola Roe Jan 2014
Bottled up,
Can't breathe,
Desperation visits,
Heart on my sleeve.

Shadowed by red,
Blinded by light,
No one to save me,
No one in sight.

Wild wind,
Howling in my ear,
Flakes on my face,
Eyes filled with fear.

No sense,
Confusion left me blind,
Puzzles and equations,
Maze of words undefined.

Words out my mouth,
Ignorance is key,
All my words are lost,
No one notices me.

In the background,
Forgotten that I'm there,
Until I create problems,
Then they really care.

I can't breathe,
Desperation visits,
Wasting away,
Minute by minute.

Heard,
Suddenly they notice,
The puzzled mind,
Put down to psychosis.

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6
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Too late.

Unforgotten mistakes.
446 · Jan 2014
Angel
Lola Roe Jan 2014
Distance between us,
Miles apart,
Being not with you,
Is breaking my heart.

I miss your voice,
And the little things you do,
Because I feel most happy,
When I'm with you.

I miss kissing your lips,
And looking into your eyes,
So beautiful, so strong,
Romeo in disguise.

You make me feel special,
You make me feel me,
Complete happiness,
Forever we will be.

I miss you my love,
My **angel.
323 · Feb 2015
Open
Lola Roe Feb 2015
Did I forget who I am?
Or have I changed?
Has the world bullied me?
Or am I insane?

Why am I always dreaming,
That life will bring greatness,
I should be chasing it,
And not waiting for happiness,

'Reach for the moon,
And you'll land amongst the stars'
Dream a little bigger,
Remove the brains cemented scars,

Breathe,
Open your eyes,
Open your arms,
And feel the warmth inside.
282 · May 2017
Lost Man
Lola Roe May 2017
How can I make him happy,
If he wont let me,
How can he be happy,
If he wont let himself be,
How can I make him smile,
When all his thoughts are grey,
How can I make him feel,
When his mind is loosing its way,
How can I make him love,
When he feels so destroyed inside,
How can I make him strong,
When he is loosing his pride,
How can I make him happy?
147 · May 2017
Untitled

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