Some say Im moody,
Others still call me a bi polar
Twisted with devil's advocacy;

I call it dealing with your B.S.

here we are.
trying to fill the emptiness
the places where we hurt each other
with small talk
and offerings of cups of coffee
and slices of chocolate cake
and flan
as if the sweetness
is enough to cover our faults.
as if sugar is the cure
for the wounds we keep.
and today.
it is.
it is a place to start.

"Please stay I love you."
I love you too.

I love the way you never acknowledge me.
How you never seemed to notice I was there.

I love the way you called me names.
How you called me annoying and troublesome.
How you called me stupid and weak.

I love the way you always left me.
How you never wanted to talk to me.

I love how you were ashamed to be around me.
How you walked away from me in public.

I love the way you toyed with me.
How you treated me like an experiment.
Like I was a thing for you to test out.

Why do you spit out lies?
We both know you don't mean it.
Is this another game for you?

You put me through hell.
I'm nothing to you.
I'm leaving you forever.

One day, when I'm on my deathbed,
I'll know that I made the right decision.

Thank you
for letting me rant about my troubles,
you stood by me even through the hardest times.

Thank you
for never losing interest in me,
I never lost you.

Thank you
for being so humble,
your courtesy got me far.

Thank you
for being my light,
piercing through the darkness of my heart.

Thank you
for your smiles,
your gifts and love kept me alive.

Thank you
for pulling me out of the frigid waters,
for I had finally sunken after skating on thin ice for so long.

Thank you
for being so selfless,
you had been going through the same thing but still thought about me first.

Thank you
for saving me,
I'd be nothing without you.