i love you,
but you don't
i'd give everything
but you won't

you're my sun
but to you
i'm just a light

it hurts a lot
but i still hope
that maybe you'll feel
what i'm feeling towards you

i want to give up
but i can't
and i don't even know
why

maybe because,
you can't teach a heart
to stop loving someone
who doesn't love you back

when the world
was so dark
i asked God
to give me light
and then you came

being bounced around
   while standing still
being pulled this way
                 and that
while holding onto solid ground
the emotional disturbance
is rabid in my brain
taking each cell
                   dividing
       and dissecting
until i'm an experimental mass
of total confusion

that's
how you make me feel.

sitting cross legged
on the floor
breathing in
                  breathing out
trying so hard
            so desperately
to erase you from my life
your dirt
has corroded my very soul
damage control is useless
so all i can do
is try to eliminate you now
before you cause me
further pain
so i continue to
breath in
            breath out
willing you to disappear
   with every breath.