And I say goodbye
as I fall… blissfully into a deep slumber
where all my vivid imagination stand in front of me
each one more quixotic than the other

saying this makes my heart ache
my stomach churn
and my eyes water
but a place like this
is not one i would've liked to exist in
where everyone excludes one
because of a language barrier
and is punished for speaking their own language
because the others felt uncomfortable
it disgusts me
that people think it's acceptable
and it saddens me
that this is a world we live in

when we hear someone's name
their face comes to mind
their personality, their body, their voice
sometimes it makes you feel good and
sometimes it doesn't
but when your name is called
it makes my heart beat harder and faster
it makes breathing difficult
it makes a smile tug at the corners of my lips
a name is just a word
but when placed to a person it becomes so much more
it makes you feel just by hearing it
and whenever i hear your name
i *feel

you treat people sweetly
believing they have a heart like yours
but not everyone can be as soft
and sweet as you
the person they truly are
is not that person to you
they become just as sweet and tender in your mind
and you give and give
they take and take
and here you are in the end
left empty
and there they are
left full.

I want a perfect body
I want a perfect face
You look like an angel
I just feel so out of place

Your laugh is like music
Your voice like a song
I stand and look at you
And I know I don't belong

You're so special
And I'm a creep
Everybody wants you
But nobody wants me

I wish I was special
But I'm just a creep
everybody wants you
They don't give a ****
About me

you wear a mask everyday
retaining your thoughts to yourself
bearing a fake smile as you trudge through the halls

your head down, your pace quick
you disguise the hurt with pleasure
pleasure that quickly vanishes and is replaced with another

I catch a glimpse of you and my mind whirs
you never seem to show any other emotion than a smile on your charming face

I purposely walk in your direction and hastily bump your shoulder
looking into your eyes
and I can tell that only they show the true emotion you hide
the blue swirls hypnotizing me

they hold so much grief and I wonder
what has he gone through that brings him so much trouble
of course I never got to find out,
he was just a stranger that I wasn't supposed to know
and with that we both walked away