If you live your life feeling as though you're a victim of circumstance, you will always be stuck in a rut of helplessness. Awful things happen in life, things you could have never prepared yourself for, and its unfair but that's just the name of the game. You won't always have control over what happens to you, in fact, most of the time you will be life's chess piece; but what you do have control over is the way you react to grief and adversity and bumps in the road. You have the freedom to choose your own mindset in any given set of circumstances. You can choose to play the hell out of the hand you've been dealt. I promise that you can survive a lot more than you think you can so don't give up, you just may surprise yourself. And besides, if you're not moving forward, where are you going?

I know that some wounds injure you so deeply that they require stitches to repair.

yet here I am, hell bent on fixing lacerations with band-aids.

Ed became my voice when mine grew too quiet.
After years of being told I was a difficult child,
I silently committed to my own disappearance.
I became negative space as Ed became my only identity.
No one has a voice when no one is listening,
and that is why I let the demons in my head speak for me.

I know that you don't believe everything must have significant meaning.

I know you don't see the whole world as art.

I know these things, and this is why you will never understand the condition of my heart.