Moving with you into Unknown
Dreaming what will be
Holding your hand through flowing sand
is my Sanctuary

I try to be no bother
make only small and sweet
but energy expands in waves
that cannot be discreet
with mouth shut tight  
expression felt
as hobbled crazy
laughs and screams
**from deepest night  
Sand Crane wails despair.

moved all day
satisfied
with fragrant daffodil bouquet
cooked with honey
loved his wrist
after dinner goodnight kissed
but night is silent
I want more
not to do
but feel
satisfied
doesn't last

being human
just one issue
gnarled over, shoved under
left to ferment rot
seeps toxin silently throughout
one belief of darkness born
gathers strength of story
  weighted sadness magnified
response from bleak to hopeless
**yet someone dares approach
with eyes that will not close
to lift an edge of pulsing scab
and call expression forth
raw alchemy of true release
again there is the will to breathe
expand admit potential
engage once more
renew belief
in life now
script unwritten

leaves are fallen ~ open view to stars
So must I see
through loss

I must serve
I must give
So far this ensures
I deserve to live.

I touch to heal
your pain I feel
compassion sublime
is for you, but not mine

What can I give you
I need to feel good
Take what I offer
it is understood

your business is mine
I know what to do
Just listen to me
or else we are through

My own needs are boring
it is yours that excite
This is my purpose
Just turn off the light

many long months
contact only in my mind
written messages net delivered
words compressed through wires
**Now sharing breath
eyes meeting eyes
Truth of this moment
is all I need

nine months in shared water
soft dark warmth with drumbeat
then laboring hard she is now birthed
wee beauty perfect formed
transformed to breathe dry air
separate now her life to share
singing her song of daring woe
telling her tale before it's unknown

She settles
as I never will
for safety over passion.
Curious this upsets me so
but look it's me in blithe disguise
the settler cringing from my gaze
my wrath a hammer on her
wherever I pretend I'm small
and can't I need a rescue
There dreams reduced to smoldering ash
it's me so sorry sorry
my righteousness a clueless clue
to what I dare not dare to do

Desert thirsts for you, for me
embodied living energy
above and underground
go find the water, find it deep
we think of death but only sleep
illusions losing ground
undulations resonate
a call to follow now

early autumn chill
somber toning frogling bass
stars beam silent truth

sorry my dear !
I spend myself cruising proverbial rhyme
no time for the dishes
no pull to our bed
'tis this you signed on for
when me you did wed.

***
life
denied
is not contained
hungry heat sparking fires

I went while dark to see what stars might shine to me
but fireflies came close enchantingly
my vision needs be here not there
to see these fairy flitters, star fliers flashing green
pulsing out of time and space
to birth a startling burst of joy
a laugh so pure and fragile
an exhale, only, to begin
again to live in awe

to welcome my fall to earth's sweet rest
after  heat of delirious growth

to call myself inside
and care for what's living
to thrive though missing sweet free moving breeze
safe shuttered from starlight and sun

to mend what I've rended
and re-imagine colors that swirl into one

long arms flying
hands deftly slicing air
with voice a hearty volume
entranced by this world

how calm my sphere would be
without your sparking fire

reluctantly I thank you for
stimulation

He tells me he's all done with drinkin'
but still in groove with stinkin' thinkin'

I wake
within continued dream
flowing
in the ageless stream

subdued in silence in hopes of a word
shocked then the flowers assuring our love
after tale forlorn so easily cured
it is clear that stories serve nothing
no power this wand except in surrender
to that which this moment seems real

His partner is the sun.
He slides to catch warm rays.
He stays 'til he's undone.
Subtle revel in his plays.

an act of power
do not think otherwise
affects all who knew the one now absent
changes forever the lives of those who love
for the violence
leaves no one to hate
and no one to blame
only the deepening flows of grief
and questions with no answers

Considered by me only
after countless casualties
result of internal battle

Surrender
to this moment
to what is
within and before me
not judging right or wrong


Receive what Is.

Then

Make
a
Choice

sweet evening rest  

soothe the flailing tendrils'
                         potentials pulsing brightly

All of this can wait
                   until I'm back in play

Sweet music this night
Cricket song floats in soft mist
Lullaby for me

swore not to do this dance again
the rhythm matters more than words
we cannot catch don't even try
we're falling off the stage
the finches flew
the cat is fat
there's hunger before dawn
the rocky trail both wet and dry
just follow hollow laugh and cry

Sun shines now through fog
misconceptions burn away
thanks to expression

quite small, really
but open to depths
never closed since first shock
awareness being here
with no encoded response
from flesh dusted wild pulse
expressing just what is
open    as one   as all    is one
treasure
already manifest
uniquely not comfortable  
welcome  not  known
nowhere  to  hide  being  now

intending Walkabout
with personal creations all acrumble as we move
our long held sacred stories  shown untrue
but let us go
the dreaming muscle will sustain
beauty consciousness entrain
unknown need not submit to fears
the demons not to rule
with baggage left behind us
we can swing a freedom dance
lessons need not bear a whip
we may just ride creatorship
trust love to rise above the mask
and find we're worthy of no task
and suffering just may not after all
*be the chosen path

the dam breaks
this pressure
let it burst
dance with chaos
barriers be ******
strong erections crumble
surrendered to unknown

sunset silhouette
insistently ruby rose
reminds me *the fire within

There is evidence, so it appears
our Universe is collapsing
surrendering into dark matter.

There is evidence, so it appears
I am expanding awareness
surrendering unto myself .

There is evidence*, creation is not complete.

today      I        sang
a song of me a
promise now delivered
unfolding melody
earthly sound of woman
soft and dark, blue and true
don't try to change
what is
evolves because it must
when      sung       out          loud

The little boys
I see them seldom
But I was there when they were born
As tiny babes I loved them well
They come now for sweet embrace*
They remember

bleeding through dimensions
shark tooth on the shore
cyber friend gets real to me
coming through the mail
dimensions blurring once again
now question what is real
the choice is ours to validate
expanding grace
contracting hate

Chiding myself seeking life in death
bird is fed from rich fallen tree.
As she finds, I know
living's not as it seems:
To Be Is to Be Is to Be
~~~~

Your finger twitched
and struck a key
the one you blocked
is ME you see !

Altogether too sane
to be poet of strenuous merit,
conforming with comfort as I do
within the vast middle.
Yet there is hope
as I seep through dissolving edges
of mass consciousness.

on scaffolding of my delight
step sure onto sharp angles right

then fall through rotting layers of wrong
play hologram dear martyr's song
  
conceived in blind faith follow
spiral maze of story's wallow
  
inaction wrapped desire
calling forth creation's fire

**emerge onto no ground
find self
disband
embrace
surround

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moon shining proud
                    undaunted by strident cloud
                walling above and below
               as  if  to close the show
          you grant inspiration
a  pulling response
that we may grow heart
expanding to ceaselessly glow.