i saw your face
my heart was beating
fast enough for me to feel
something different
we stood so close
not close enough
i tried to hide my interest
give you distance

and in my dreams
im always running
from something that scares me dearly
hear me from a place
thats finding solace in embrace surrounding
gently rocking back into the silence

a lull
a dull
a moment to surrender
a space
a grace
a lace of strong in time
to remember what is mine
its nothing but sublime
a moment to surrender


and in my life
im always running
to something that feels so far away

tell me anything
you want
im always listening
except for the times im floating far and far away

and the nights feel so long without
i am all alone about to
learn something about myself
learning something about the Self , capital S
that takes me deeper like a well
to take me out of this kind hell
and remember that time in November
when you reminded me what its like to be alive
i felt like no one else was in the room
its not soon enough for me to feel something i can belief is true

delete your phone
to be alone
im trying to make
a life that takes and gives
learns to forgive
to know a place i wont believe
to make my way back home

its in my life
i feel satisfied
when i can be most true
to be alive
to try not to lie
but still try to hide somethings

how can i soften the darkness of my heart?
i am grateful to feel
the awareness of being aware
of the space in my chest
that aches and is depressed
with both hands on my heart
i inhale, exhale
continue like that
until the feelings form
and pass like waves
watery grave
a stone in the ground
tonight ill sleep in peace

Some people go their whole lives without experiencing love
What a blessing it is to know love
To know that it hurts
And still to try

the answer won't be found on the internet
your friends will speak only from what they know
advice is hard to hear and tough to swallow
i wish everyone would just shut up


i am irritated and equally delighted by your presence
oh the fluctuations
how they ebb and flow
linger, just let go
we are only visiting
as we learn to love  and disdain
before there was a flower
there was seed, rain, sun and pain
and it all goes back
back into the dirt
where we came

the fear of death
so many avoid it
taking stakes in fate
when we all die alone

in a past life
i knew you
and you touched my heart
so i remember, forget
repeat with no regrets
because it all happens
and is happening
for you

I don't stress about money
because I've seen without doubt
that it makes people funny

I do good work
because I have hands that can
don't seek the rewards
or the fruits of man

It will only get better
if you focus on the heart
to think less of fluctuating thoughts
and create a life of art

i spent the season planting seeds
take time to breath
it all happens so fast

my hands are rough
from the branches, sticks and lifting
hardly enough space
to remember i was missing you

the boxes packed and ready to be sold
the air felt colder
i cut off all my hair
to feel the wind on my shoulders
there was no more hiding
who could i come clean to now?

we all have our seasons
we all have our seasons
you, me, the cosmos in between
we all have our seasons
we all have our seasons
harvesting is just one of them

lonely, i am not alone
just trying to get used to the solo home of bones
let me be this hollow shell
to fill and let go
to hold a place inside to grow
A human having a souls experience

i stopped looking and i found
i stopped thinking and listened to the sound
of the room without walls
it was quiet and sweet
to sow and to reap
remember to take time to breath
it all happens so fast