Do you know what it feels like to be alone
Locked away inside your head cause you don't where you belong
Every single day and night stressing tryna stay strong
But even you know eventually you're gonna be getting a call Home
Sometimes I wonder why my life had to change
Why do I gotta live with fact that I got a ****** up brain
Why is it that most of my thoughts are suicidal today
I didn't know it was going to be this much of struggle to enjoy my days
Almost every day I wake up an wished I didn't
I forgot what its like to be a happy person livin
They say your life isn't that bad but they don't see with your vision
I've seen my own death in hundreds of different ways
I get told to ask God for help and that I need to pray
I got scars all over my body that'll never go away
But nobody will ever understand the pain...

Could you have the thoughts of a mad man?
Sometimes I feel like I was blessed by gods hand
Other times I feel like the devils failed plan
At the end of the day I chose the holy stand
I can't stop the flow of thoughts and the way I think
No wonder why. I feel like I'm always on the brink
How can you sit on the edge of life and never blink
Full of ambition but a hole in which you sink
Death is your bestfriend and life Is your mother
Which pushes you more so you can move further?
Who would of thought you were the type to commit ******
not physically but mentally like your counting sheep in your sleep but I'm the herder
Sometimes I can't feel the pain
Could you look into my eyes and see the shame?
Most people see a lost soul that went insane
but if you look into my brain you'll see the thoughts of a person that's sane
Many nights I always talk to myself
Always wondering the condition of my health
While most people get sick over chasing the wealth
I guess that's the difference between having the mind of a goblin and an elf
Ppl with a certain mindset tend to cause a distraction for the people of the struggle who came a long way to enjoy a little relaxation and satisfaction of giving back to the community in a generous fashion
Who else could think about stuff like this except that of a mad man with a specially designed plan to spread a message with closed eyes and a open hand

s it true ppl can fall in love at first sight
does something catch your eye that makes everything feel right
do you give it your all on that first nite
what if u get left then love is jus another fright
sometimes ppl replace love with the will of lust
the person u once loved will become the person u can't trust
in the end your heart is the one whose get bust
which puts u in a state of mind n all your feelins get crushed
suicidal thoughts cuz u get tired of livin
how can one person make u get this type of feelin....

Long nights filled with sorrow and pain
Nothing to shield you from the showers of rain
Tears running down your face and blood spewing from your veins
I have but one question on the top of my brain
I was once told never take love as a game
An if you took advantage of it life will do the same
Haunting and taunting you like an uncleanable stain
Why must this knife bring my name to shame..
Some people think love isn't the answer
While others take it serious as if it were cancer
Blood replaces tears and being alive is a fear
I never knew being in love could be this real
Who knew disaster was instore this year...