i am a lake of emotions
you are a skipping stone
causing ripples in me
until i finally engulf you

forgive me for my waves
i have forgotten how to touch
a lover with a hand
that is actually loving

i’ve memorized the way your hands
feel when they’ve been holding mine
so tightly your rings leave red marks
in between my fingers

i know what your sheets smell like
and the way they feel on my bare skin
with your skin pressed against mine
for our few moments of solitude

i can feel your legs
intertwined with mine
when it’s the middle of the night
and i’m too cold to pull away

i know how your voice is going to sound
and the pitch it’s going to take
before you can even muster a response
to something i’ve said

*i’m in love with you
and i’m okay with that

perhaps it was my fault-
i never begged for your forgiveness
i simply floated away

maybe you're rose
maybe i'm jack
or maybe it's the other way around

you were desperate for a love story
but you didn't think of the end
and how i never make it there

i was not born to be
your sunrise and moonbeam
that's too much responsibility

sometimes things just don't work out
especially when i stop trying
perhaps it was my fault

follow me into the evergreens
that clutter up the inside of my head
you can crack my skull open
and pull out everything you want to know

let me climb the mountains
you have manufactured in your heart
i’ll go all the way to the top
slow enough to not miss anything

i’ll dig the first hole to the center of the earth
and come back with a jar full of molten lava
if that’s what you need from me
if that’s what you want from me

there have never been walls between us
but i am a mess
and i think you probably are too-
not even that can stop me from loving you