I've thought about this for some time now
How to explain my feelings for you
I could tell you the way your eyes make me tingle
And your smile makes my soul burn flames
Of overwhelming joy
But when all said and done
It comes down to those three words
Used so freely without thought
Used so carelessly without proper reason
But it's not for your outrageously good looks
Or sweetly blessed skin
It's the way you care for my thoughts
The way you I know you'll always be there
And for that I thank you
And for that I will always love you

In a war between heaven and hell
Witch side will you take
Will you fight for the good
Or give into fear of the bad
Will you stand beside the angels
Or be enticed by the devil
If I was given a choice I'd stand by the light
But my sins surround me in darkness
A great shadow now follows me every where that I go
But I'd rather be watched over by a angel then followed by the devil

I like the way you smile
I love the way you taste
I adore the way you look at me
I hate that your not mine

When angels cry
The sins in us all
Are washed away by their tears
But there anger tears apart the sky
So when you hear the thunder roar
It isn't the atmosphere cracking
Under pressure
Its when the good are done wrong
And the bad should begin to feel fear
For their end is near

So lets start with rejection
And how it turns to obsession
the need and greed to find
a soul willing to stay
without needing to pray
they wont fade
so you know happiness won't be delayed
anymore and the time you've spent looking
wont eventually turn to a family booking
a sibling or sons funeral
hoping it doesnt turn communal
because the family doesnt want them all to know
you weren't strong enough
to stand up and show your pain inside
and they weren't there to find the signs
they wish you'd left behind

so lets end with acceptance
and how it turns to repentance
of the life you were given
and the fact you emptied your veins
to rid your body of all the names
of the people you thought you new
and knowing that no matter what you do
it just isn't enough for you to find a reason
to smile anymore, this is my closure
this is my end, this is a letter i wrote
to my friend, this is the start
of my design of how my end
will be defined

In distant years I plan to build
A house for you and me
And for it to be a sanctuary
For the lost and those in need
Because people come and go
But memories will never fade
I will build a home
For happiness to be made
A place where your pain and fears will cascade

Just like a heart beat
I need you to breath
But just like a drug
I need you to feel sane
The idea of normality
Sinks into my soul
And I feel comfortable when your
Presence is near its like an angel
Wrapping me in her wings
I'm bullet proof
Protected from the devastation and corruption that would easily course through my veins
But she keeps me pure she keeps me free she makes it okay for me to be me

Don't pretend your sorry to make yourself feel better for the sins you created on the premise that you are who you are and you can't change because everyone can change you just refuse to,  accept one day you'll realise its all your fault and you could of done something about it but you just make out like you have a demon inside and you like to communicate with the devil because of your past stop making excuses for yourself, accept what you've done, because I did a long time ago I just can't watch you professionally destroy yourself anymore

You know your things are bad when even poetry won't help