When you separate the complete devastation you feel from life
Life seems all to pointless
We all learn from our mistakes
So we are all born to do wrong
In a small hope they won't happen again
But in a life time you feel a similar kind of pain
A million times before you pass
So why are we not learning
Why is my stomach still churning
I'm trying to see what were meant to be
But all I see...
Is a lost cause

Jealousy.
It's a disease
A painful virus that runs deep
In everyone's mind
It's pulls and tears
The heart apart
And takes over all other emotions
It clouds your judgement
It renders all happy memories
Redundant
So next time it takes control
Remember they have a soul
And they still need you to feel whole

I met this girl once
Her personality was as wild
As her hair
And her sweet smile
Matched her eyes
I remember telling myself
The Sweet little lies
That got me through my day
To make me believe she'd be okay
But there was nothing left for her here
Not after her soul got burnt
I admired her strength
She taught me a thing or two
But now she's gone
To find a new home
And I'll forever remember that smile I loved to see,
You know that one that used to save me,
Nor her eyes that used to amaze me.

It feels cold as Ice
But as heavy as a rock
It festures in your heart
It plagues your mind
It binds resentment
To your soul
And makes your insides
black as coal
That feeling of lonliness
We've all felt
And we remember the pain
It has dealt

So is this really it?
This is how it ends
Not even a simple sorry
I couldn't be there my friend
I don't think you realise
What you've done
I don't think you realise
How cold I have now become
I know it wasn't intentional
I just didn't think the last time
We spoke it would be the final
I waited and waited for your return
But the only thing I saw
Was you walking away
More and more
If your reading this
You know who you are
I wanted you to be happy memories
Not a cold resenting scar

you complain that your never heard
that you wish someone would understand your sorrow
and that poetry is a way to express your innself
then hide your thoughts you write down on a page
as if your embarrased to show your true self
but maybe you should be willing to show anyone that shows
slight interest maybe you should open up your mind for the
world to see maybe you shouldnt look at others
and worry about what they think of me
negatiuve thoughts over come
optimistic actions
and sublimely create destruction
reactions that in time form into sanctions
of allowing someone to find just what there looking for
because lets be honest you've always wanted someone to find you
because your too scared to find someone yourself out of fear
they'll cause you one particular pain you dont believe
your heart can go through again
but how can someone find someone so perfect
if they dont even know they are there
you were given a voice so use it
dont abuse the power of silence because one day it will
be the only thing you will ever hear and break you piece by piece

You said you'd stay
And
What happened to that?

These roses
are dead
The violets
are to
But just keep strong
I won't
Give up on you

Why do I have to tell you I'm not okay
for you to make time for me
Can't you just let it happen?
Why do I have to crumble
Before you even stumble
Onto the idea that I need you
I'm not asking for much
I don't want your 100% attention as such
I just want to feel wanted
Is that too much to ask
You said you'd always be by my side
I wanted to get better I really tried
You choose to ignore the signs of my decay
And sit and wait for the day
Just before it's too late
Why do I have to wait
Before you help me when I'm in this state

You are just another scar on my heart
And
I'm just another promise you couldn't keep

And your the most amazing girl I know
your soul glows in the absence of light
and sparkles in the moon light
So although pain may stream through your blood
I only wish that I simply could
Kiss your pain away

Obligation
Is what enslaves a nation
Into hatred
But it's not what god intended
When we were created
So do what makes you feel good
Do what your heart tells you, you should
So when you lie there reviewing you life
You'll know you did it right

In times of peace sons bury there fathers
But in times of war fathers bury there sons
Because when the rich wage war
it's the poor who die

I understand that your now too busy
I understand you don't have time
I don't know if it's because
You know I'll always stay
Or because your not bothered either way
Jealousy is a disease
And it's growing inside my veins
It's flowing through me
Like water into drains
I only want a hour
Maybe even two
Just one more time
To show you I love you