As hot as the fire that made you
So beautiful to gaze and lose myself in
Your warmth
It radiates
And you glow
That reflects on my face
And I glow too
Small and harmless so you seem
you can become something from nothing
Yet you can destroy everything
I just want to crawl in the space between your life and death
I want to hold you but I know it will hurt
And you’re using everything in you
to stay alive
Your colors dim as your end nears
And I’ll stay for it all
Watching from a distance so I don’t disturb
You were meant only for my eyes to see
And my heart to feel

I feel like I’ve observed you enough
To know what you are
Yet I’ve barely scratched the surface
You’re so vast
And I only see what you make seen
Within your dark matter
I wonder what’s beyond,
What secrets you hide
I want to know your true beginning and end
But you have neither a center or edge
All I know is
At some point you were raging
All your matter and energy was alive
You were thriving
But for unknown reasons
You started to slowly change
You created atoms and stars
Which I still lose myself in today
All our history lies in your galaxies
And when I look up
The things of our past seem so distant..
light years away
Yet they can still be seen
Even as you move further away
from me each day
Even though we grew
Because at one point
You were much closer to me
And I existed in your universe

I’ve been hiding how I’m feeling
I’ve been fighting how I’m feeling
A pendulum of my emotions
continuously swinging
Every time cutting deeper
I can’t deny what this is
But I don’t have to admit it
To you
As long as it looks like I’m winning
But I wonder if you see the damage

It’s hard to break into a home
With no windows or doors
Good thing no one knows where I hide
They can’t see the mess I’ve made
They can’t see the holes in the walls
Or the wall paper peeling away
They want to fix my home
Like they know what colors suit the walls
They find my squeaky floors annoying
But they sing to me as I sleep
They want to cover the holes on the wall
they don’t look nice
They don’t bother filling them in
It’s more convenient to cover them with frames
It saves time and words
But good thing no one knows where i hide
On the outside I fit right in