I keep on playing this game,
while going insane,
my brain feels like mush,
too much kush? Smokin in the bush,
don't push, calm and quiet,
ill throw a riot, just to fight it,

does that sound dumb?
to me, its just plain fun,
am I a **** for being numb?
pain feels like a run in the slum,
while buzzing on high lungs,
never feel like I am done,

so what's up?
in this deserted space,
because I am here,
looking for the nervous rain,
searching for minor pain,
that I would play again.

that's facts

This is a little shade of depression,
my younger days I'm remembering,
thinking of all the pain I'm in.

I'm feeling like I've been so caught up in my own dam lies,
I have never seen the fires this bright,
I burned,
I forgot all the lessons I learned,
I'm hurt,
and I've been suicidal for a while,
and still, I'm in denial,
my thoughts are being vile,
while going through this trial,
called life, it brings strife,
the trial of fire brings desire,
I'm tired, of being tired,
I'm getting told to keep on trying,
I'm fighting,
cuz there's no more hiding,
listen to what I'm writing.

(Singing chorus)
I'm hearing voices all around me,
I'm feeling darkness creep upon thee,
I'm giving up\nIve had enough
No more smiling it's too tough. (X2)

Every since day dot I've thought a lot,
maybe too much, but I Never thought of such,
don't touch,
this is precious,
I take the measures,
I curve the edges,
I burn the letters,
my verse it betters,
my curse it feathers,
the earth it tremors,
my demons are mad,
and they feen when I'm sad,
they beam when I'm mad,
but I feel kinda glad,
with a glass in my lap,
my pen and my pad,
the first smile I've had,
my rhyming is back,
yes, my demons are black,
they carry an ax,
but I carry a sword,
chop, chop I'm bored

(Singing chorus)
I'm hearing voices all around me,
I'm feeling darkness creep upon thee,
I'm giving up
I've had enough
No more smiling it's too tough.
(X2)

R.I.P Larry (11 August 2017)

You know what hurt me the most,
Larry's last words dying on the phone,
"make it better with your dad, u know u love him son"
those words stuck in my head
the scars have begun,
don't think I'm writing for fun,
cuz I tried,
u turned your back like it was a lie,
Larry's last wish
I'd defied,
he didn't know the real you,
was that a factor,
through his eyes,
you were a caring chapter,
the very next page
and I was the laughter,
the very next day
was disaster,
Larry had passed,
I didn't do what he had asked,
when I told him I would,
deep in my mind, I was hoping I could,
deep in my thoughts, his words are still put,
deep in my heart
I hate you for good

Farther,
mother,
Brother,
sis,
someone pull me from the abyss,
Larry, I'm a sorry soul,
I tried for you but now I fold,
Farther,
mother,
Brother,
sis,
someone pull me from the abyss,
Larry, I'm a sorry soul,
I tried for you and I can't let go.

Yeah, where is the award for not been home,
I'm all alone,
Mumma won't pick up the phone so slip in a zone,
shift to my own,
without a clue,
I grew,
without a way,
I would stay,
yeah when I was weak I would pray
and I was hoping for an answer,
from this so-called master in laughter,
cuz we raised with lies,
and swooped when were high in the sky,
but imma die without a tear in my eye,
yeah,
imma strive to defy this mastermind,
it's just a way to escape my plastered mind,
to escape my fathers crime,
so I shine when I can with a pen,
these words I will bend to my friend,
the demons won't trend,
the feening will end,
and ill make myself great again


this **** always feels the same,
I'm ashamed of my name,
my aim is the fame in this game,
the family put Webb to shame so I'm just a noone,
trying to be someone,
and its no fun,
getting a house and a job,
the fear of the cops,
or getting jumped in a parking lot,
yeah,
I think a lot,
that's just a few I thought I'd plot to prove my spot,
to stick in your head think about next weeks rent,
when u only got a dollar 20 cent to your name
but still ill write these bars
hoping that it sparks entertainment in my cause,
cuz I feel rather tainted when I'm painted with a public profile,
defying the mask I cast my words on your part since the start.

I want to keep writing, but I'm dying to find the rhyme,
my mind is numb and on the run, and I'm feeling so dumb,
I gave up everything for a bit of fun,
a bit of dope, that made me lose hope,
I'd grab the rope and wish to choke,
letting those thoughts soak till my heart broke.
Yeah
Use to wish I was famous with pockets of dough,
while out on the road living a life I don't know,
and that **** made me real,
I started turning down a deal, I don't want to be the one to ****,
I'd feel I was chill until someone would peel making me tilt and grab a knife wishing I could carve out their insides,
so I hid all my feelings and made myself a tranquil,
no emotions now and I'm thankful,
use to being so hateful, now I walk and I am faithful to a fault,
you couldn't pick me for a bloke who use to make loads selling dope,
Nah couldn't pick me for a dude who plays the guitar, or drives a ****** car Nah,
just wanna blend in,
just wanna be a face,
just want to be a nobody,
for no one to know my name,
and that's real, make no mistake, I could bake a cake and all you'd say is
"Thanks, uhhhh Blake?"
I Always thought I was useless until I found the truth,
and now I'm a short shot from being as good as you,
I always told myself, I could never be a star,
now I tell myself, that I should never give it up,
yeah, I'm use to getting hate,
use to getting blamed,
use to getting ****,
so I guess we're all the same.
(What a shame)
I'll fight to stay tranquil,
I'll decide when I'm tasteful,
If you don't like this little taste fool,
You can get out of my Facebook.© Kaleb Webb 2020

Yeah this is my life

Its kinda ****** tho

I just need a girl by my side, someone too hold all day and all night, i just wanna ride or die, no more or im out my mind, no more imma walk outside, no more or imma leave goodbye.


Im done with the ******* around, i need a ***** more solid then ground, i need a ***** who don't give a ****, and i need a break from all that is fake, ill give it a shake, your the icing on cake, well mine, thats fine, i hope, your kind.
Well That can be taken in 2 ways, either **** or a golden glaze, i just hope this is a decent maze, i just hope your a great chase, might just need your number incase.


Hey, look, listen, shh, your, looking, pretty, grr,
Hey, you, gorgeous, girl, im, feenin, you aswell,


And I don't mean too be rude, maybe i seem a tad loose, im feenin a few, I'm looking at you, ill sneeze, Just say bless you, im blessed by an angel, I need too be thankful, im out for unfaithful, ill fight for my tranquil.


Ive been ****** around since i was a kid, Mentally and physically im sick of the ****, uncertainty is a crime, and pain is the time,
Unfaithful brings doubt, and i dont wanna shout, but if that be about, **** it im out!


Look i don't think that im perfect, im far from deserving, my thoughts are beserk, but your presence gives me feeling of hurt cuz I'm not in your shirt, give me that perk, im far from a ****, i remember all the lessons ive leaned, so lets read the same book for a turn,

Im changing,
Even though every day i wake up im still blazing,
Going through this **** yeah i think im changing,
This is my life but im still hating.

You know what hurt me the most, Larry's last words dying on the phone, "make it better with your dad, you know you love him son" those words stuck in my head the scars have begun, dont Think I'm writing for fun, cuz I tried, you turned your back like it was a lie, Larry's last wish I'd defied, he didn't know the real you, was that a factor, through his eyes, you were a caring chapter, the very next page and I was the laughter, the very next day was disaster, Larry had passed, I didn't do what he had asked, when I told him I would, deep in my mind I was hopeing I could, deep in my thoughts he words are still put, deep in my heart I hate you for good


Farther, mother, Brother, sis, someone pull me from abyss,
Larry im sorry soul, i tried for you but now i fold,
Farther, mother, Brother, sis, someone pull me from abyss,
Larry im sorry bro, i tried for you and i can't let go.