When I am wrinkled, my hair is gray,
I will always see you as you are today.
My love, my love as handsome as can be,
After you, there will be no way my heart will ever be free.
Like a pirate at sea, you captured me.
You took me away from where I once knew,
Showing me some place entirely new.

So many comic books but which to read?
Ms. Marvel, Scarlet Witch.
Secret invasion, I need a switch.

Got so many new ones, I'm so excited to read.
Which one first, is the answer I need.

Thinking now, I miss the late night talks about nothing.
I miss the late night talks about something.
I miss staying on the phone all night playing kingdom hearts.
I miss singing and dancing over skype wanting to never part.
I miss the unsecure security.
I miss your laugh, and I miss your crazy stories.
But most of all,
I miss the simplicity we once had.

The unlikely friendship we shared,
Until we found out we both cared.
I believe everything happens for a reason,
But what if our time has run?
What if it's only just begun?

Is this meant to happen, is it just fate?
Or is it time we closed the gate.
I don't know what path is right.
I'm just so scared to mess up this life.
I wish there was a manuel, or I could see into the future,
Maybe then I could make the suture.

The forest is my throne,
with it's love I shall stay.
Protect it with my life,
I will not run away.
I float on the promises of the wind, giving all I can.
Spreading life with the flick of a hand.
I stay hidden for but one to see,
in my forest, my throne, I will always be. I follow the moonlight to where I call home, knowing I'll never be alone. Mother Earth and Father sky, will love like us until they die.
Playing and dancing, spreading the light.
The forest, my throne, you and I.

I read all of your poems, and I think they're beautiful.

She tells me logic is the way to go.
Honesty is her meaning, analytical is her kind.
I still can't seem to make up my mind.

Should I keep my promise, or risk it all?
For a couple of lies, that could make me fall.
The risk is too great, or is too small?

Replying is all I want to do,
But logic and fate say its too soon.

Times are hard, this is true.
I want you to know, I made this for you.
Days go by, through and through.
But it'll always be us two.

I look to the stars and see you so far away.
Thinking of you almost everyday.
I'm torn between my word and these feelings.
I'm bound by a promise to keep my silence.
For myself, I just can't let go of you.

My mind, my heart, my soul and logic are all tearing me apart.
Not sure what to do, I sit in silence doing my part.
Safety has always been where I have hid.
When I make a leap from safety, it's big.
Too scared or too shy, to make the wrong move.

I'm sorry for this, i'm sorry for silence, i'm sorry for the pain, i'm sorry for my cowardice.

Smile.
even when it doesn't quite reach your eyes or touch the surface of your soul; smile.
Because a little brokenness goes a long way and somewhere in the depths of my broken soul I hope one day a smile saves me.
Even if he doesn't mean it- maybe it will be the stepping stone to us falling in love or the motivation not to put my right foot in front of my left and fall into the depths of those train tracks.
Smile because even if you're not saving yourself maybe you'll save someone else and perhaps that will be enough.
Perhaps in this world where everything is turning a little too fast and I keep getting whiplash as I try differentiate between what was and what is and which deadline I should meet next maybe I'll smile.

I'll smile because the sun is still shinning and the leaves kiss each other with an intimacy I cant help but envy and maybe I'll smile.
And maybe one day my smile might just reach my eyes again and maybe one day I'll be as happy as I pretend to be and one day it will all be enough.

So today I'll smile.