i swear i write every word just to reach you.
everything i do is to teach you , to understand how i need to be loved, with the coldest distance that keeps me warm at night.
love me carefully, please

there was once a love story hidden in
the words " i stay up all night for you "
           " i wait for you to message me "
           " i will wait for you "
           " you "
i think about how ridiculous i must have sounded in those moments, waiting for you, a love that has passed, a love that is no longer mine, no longer ours.
i was stupid to think that you were ever mine.

******* coma

Cool
Calm
Collective,

Constantly
Caught
Consistence,

Common
Cold
Conflicted,

Colossal
Conduct
Clinic,

Climate
Cold
Conscription,

Condemned
Coma
Victim.

poetry lost its grandeur when I realized that this body of words could not make you love me.
poetry lost itself to me|when I realized everything ever wrote has an ending.
when i realized, everything that could have been|you stomped on|after. . . You killed me.

i built a home in you.
i found happiness in you.
i found life in you.
i found parts of myself
   in you.
i built a home in you,
all by myself
i built a home in you,
with you|your permission.
i love you, to the ends of this earth
i love you.
i love you, to the breaking of me.
i love you, everything.
i love you, everything.
i love you, to the end of myself
                   to the end of you.
i love you, a mistake.
i love you, i would do it all over again
                   without any hesitation.
i love you, everything.

..earthquakes beneath my skin.
i posses the power
     of unruly waves.
you've seen me shake.
i cannot count on you to hold me
    when i am most troubled.
..earthquakes beneath my skin,
tremors i could never control.
suicide|

The tides are taking me home,
On a bed of shimmering ice.
The dawn of your smile,
The heart is on stake,
For the hope of those days,
I will carry this break.
For the coffee you make,
I live out this day,
To see you smile,
To see your heart in fire,
I would open those doors,
To the chance of you and me,
Standing in the sea,
Holding your hand.