You say it so quickly, without any hesitation or realization of the pain you have caused
You say it with all seriousness and so much ignorance
It's as if you have no knowledge of the way that word rolls of your tongue as a rain drop does on a shingle of a house
That one single word gives me chills that begins in my toes and runs through my body like an electric current
The electricity might as well be anger also because that too is surging
Do you have any idea what you are even doing?
You say it with all of your loose minded friends who too suffer from ignorance
People like you make it hard to live in this world
Its people like you that cause sufferers of your ignorance to begin wars
to begin segregation
to feel hated
to feel lost
to feel depression
to end their lives
It is people like you, even the ones sitting in this very rooms, who have caused many people to die
It is people like you who will never truly know what the term "gay" means

water, cold and crystal
how much until I feel clean?
Refill, refill, and still I see the hurt
the pain and the mistakes are not fading
shower after shower
the stream has long gone cold
skin red and raw,
tropical scent is overwhelming but the anguish is still beating
or is that my heart? are they one and the same?
will I ever be me again?
Can I be refreshed, rejuvenated, reborn?
I gave trust away to a monster who abused it
Who used me and broke me,
I should have known better.
And now it's over, but still
I am covered in the dirt of shame
in the grime of fear and anxiety
in the mess that he left of me.
I need to detox, but how?
Can a nightmare be cleansed away?
Will I ever be clean again?

One day
I’ll wake up
In the middle of the night
3 am on the clock but
I can’t sleep
I feel
So lonely
Then I turn over and
Find you sleeping next to me
One day
The loneliness will go away
And 3 am
Won’t be such a miserable time anymore