I took your look as a kiss.

I felt the green poison flowing
through my veins and being
carried throughout my slim,
uninterested body.  

The language of her look left
me reeling and reaching for
poles covered in grease from
the night before.

Suicides are redundant when
love gets in between unwanted
goals and something new.
It's dark enough in this room

not to care for death tonight.
Her body speaks of adult matters
to a hidden child inside.
Rip me open and devastate me.

It's as good a night as any for sin.
Let the Nile River flow out of me
and into your taboo cavern.
This secret cannot escape our tongues.

To be sure of it, lets wash it down
with ***, whiskey, and gin.
This kind of love is not kind in
the soul of the word.

Your look may be poison, but
my words are what is left
in between regret and suicide.
I now know that your kiss is sin.

I am slipping at the seam
Walking on a balance beam
Lord, lead me in the right way
Light my path throughout the day
Do not let me fall behind
Not all these people are kind
Please stay forever by my side
Be my own personal guide
God, I always need you here
Being alone, that's my fear
Promise that with me you'll stay
That you'll make everything okay

In love with life
Though I am not attached.
I am blessed with many gifts,
And loved by those who SEE.
I do fear.
I do loath.
Though mostly I rejoice
Just to be alive.
I see beyond this form.
To the dimensions which dance between.
And when my form here ends,
I know I will still see.
I love my life,
But I am not attached.

your parents were right
when they said not to make friends online
because it's dangerous.

don't make friends online
because while your almost-brother
can't sleep for the 159th night in a row
your arm can't reach across half the country
to grab the sleeping pills out of his hand.

you won't even have money to fly to the funeral.

and you'll blame yourself
for the rest of your ******* life
for not being awake with him.

don't make friends online
because your life turns into numbers:
$642 for a plane ticket,
4 states away,
20 hours behind the wheel.

don't make friends online
because you'll fall in love with her
and you'll never touch her.

don't make friends online
because when she has a panic attack,
california is hours away
and you can't bring her tea
and count 1-2-3 to help her breathe
and hold her while she cries.

don't make friends online
because you'll constantly live in fear
that it'll happen again, but on purpose this time,
that she'll give up on life
and you'll have two souls pulling on your shoulders
and you'll cry yourself to sleep
with the same mantra pounding at your skull
i should have been there

so listen up kids
it's dangerous