Mother,

I'm sorry I'm not skinny enough to wear clothes you want me to. I'm sorry I'm fat. But being fat is not bad. Fat is just a describing word. Just like skinny and chubby, short and tall. I'm sorry the music I listen to gives you headaches, I try to keep it down. I know how much you hate the screaming. Maybe sometime you could listen or search up the lyrics, please? Maybe you will know how I'm feeling after a few songs. I'm sorry my favorite color is black, not pink or purple. I'm sorry I don't wear dresses. I'm sorry I like dying my hair different colors and that I like piercings and wish to get some tattoos some day. What I'm not sorry about is my sexuality. Don't try to put me down because I'm bisexual. I will come back stronger and just rise again. I'm not sorry about what I believe either. I may not be catholic like the rest of the family but I still have a heart. Even with everything you dislike about me, you will never break me.

You cannot break me.

Sincerely,
Your daughter

I curse my stars for a fair game
While I nurse your scars from an old flame.
If I let you down
Like I tend to,
I'm a fool for you.

I'm a fool for you.

You can't let your parents love or the broken love that you've seen all around the world define what you are going to love like or what your love is going to be like or what love is going to do to you; you just let yourself be guided by it.

I have fought hard with Anxiety
Having been swung between
Two spheres of moods
One of melancholy and the other
Of excited elated optimism

Between the two
I would exhaust myself
Day and Night
And to deal with my emotions
Was no easy task

I would cry and weep
I would feel down
And blame myself
I would apologize
For being thus
I was not in my element
I tell
When I am fresh
I feel I have lagged behind
Due to missing things while at low

It has been one sad plight
For me to have come thus far
I am still hopeful of a day
When I have overcome
These swinging moods
I hope to keep a positive
Spirit that enables me
To act constructively
When I can't be constructive
I would just start affirm
That I am more
Than I think I am
Then I start
To work like I have been
Able bodied and able minded
Sitting here
jotting down makes it all come
to view. Affirm and believe
that is what i do now
to be better each day

I am responsible
I am reliable
I ma resourceful
I am resilient

i am healthy; i am lucky ; i am virtuous; i am organized

I feel the energy when I say these
I act different when I say these
I have faith surging into my veins
From somewhere or nowhere
I create, I cook, I clean, I write,
I eat, I make tea, I feed my family
I pray, I meditate, I am not overwhelmed
i am a wonderful person
When I affirm
I can live with this person
She is good to me
She thinks highly of me
She attracts nice friends to her
She is just pleasant to be around
She is someone I could love forever
She is my friend and hero
She is my superstar and confidant
She is all I need to keep me
Close to the Creator
I love her
I love me
I love the positive me
I love the quiet me
I love the peaceful me
I love the loving me
I love the lovable me
i love all that she could be
I love all that she gave up for me
I love her day and night
I love being with her all my life
I need noone but her
I need nothing but her love
I need nothing but her assurance
I need only her
She and I
We are one and the same
We play and plan together
We are best friends
We create our good times
We are the joy of the world
We are the gift to the world
Together we conquer
Together we let go
Together we enjoy the ocean
Together we go places
Together we are I and myself

మనసున మెదిలిన సంఘర్షణ (in my heart a struggle arise)

ఎదలో ప్రతి చోటున వెంటాడే ప్రతిరూపమా(haunted with your memory)

ఆనందం అయ్యేనా నీ దాసోహమా(my happiness was under your control)

వెంటాడే ప్రతి రేయి నీ మౌనమా(darkness I encountered, because of your silence)

అలుపే ఎరుగని ఓ దీపమా(everlasting light)

తనువంతా మాడ్చావే అణువణువునా (burnt me all over)

మెరుపై నువ్వు చేరావే మేఘమా(like a lightening cloud)

అణువస్త్రమై చీల్చావే ప్రియతమా(became a nuclear weapon heading towards me)

ప్రేమనే సాగరాన విడిచావే సౌందర్యమా !!!(left me in an ocean full of Love)

Let us pretend that we'll make it out alive,
Stuck in the middle, show some decency or pride
but not both
Your reputation is at stake.

Head is pounding, sound is ringing in your ear.
Deaf to the music, but the dissonance is so clear.
How do you plea?