You come around, unnaturally I turn my head.
These words are far from hidden.
But just like you, I can't put it to bed.
Rose in my cheeks, a skip in my heart, emotional body prison.


I feel it your rebuttal, I see it in your eyes.
Nostalgia more forgiving, conformity doesn't quite sit right.
I've lost the spark, but never more at home than by your side.
Mornings of coffee and grandeur swiftly become a bourbon filled night.

I take your hand, even in fear I know where we are going.
Your intentions are clear, emotionally grounded.
I can't stay in your eyes forever, although this feels slow motion.
You kiss me and its here my heart becomes swollen.

Longer days and quicker nights blend together with subtle disconnect.

In the way you left a permanent imprint on the right side of my bed.
I slowly wait for what I don't really know. The feeling of safety in indecisive worries, hopefully a soft glow.

My light it shines in moments unplanned, instead of self confidence it's a gear turn cranked by hand.

You think you know me, but I've changed further than the time and distance we spend apart. I always love you but my heart hardens sometimes as I'm often alone in the dark.

I do believe absence makes the heart grow fonder, but cast away at sea for so long this man feels like an island and a rock with grooves smoothed out by ocean water.

One if by fire two if by sea, I travel far and wide to find the heart of me. Within the realms of earth and sky, grounded in conscience lifted by soul. In the longing to be whole I fell and lost the truth I seek.

One if by fire two if by sea, rivers run red this heart once shed every drop in that was humanity. My gut I lost trust in, these feelings play games. Semi circle i spin never finding justice in sin, is this my reality.

One if by fire two if by sea, forever I wait subtle smiles hide misery. Yearning for their touch. Knowing now this void I made no one could jump, independence I wanted inadvertently pushed everyone away inevitably now my crutch.

One if by fire two if by sea, I can't hold on un able to let go. Left in the past innocence to a future unknown. Subtle nostalgia brings wavering peace, like a night fueled by liquid passion, the mourning sun unable to let me grow, there is no easy release.

One if by fire two if by sea, I walk this road alone, no longer feeling the company. Great triumphs we made, through hardships we knew an unspoken bond. Now I must leave home we knew this all along. Always knowing now what it means to be a family, for a while there my brothers brought out the best of me.

One if by fire two if by sea, the end I find is still unknown to me. The effervescent water of love always in my veins. The incessant fire of hope slowly burns my bones the same. When full circle I leave this place the ashes I made not with out trace.

One if by fire two if by sea, my fire the sun that shines bright. This body of water luminescent under the moon light. When my day will end I become horizon colorful embodiment of earth and sky, where passion of the sun meets calming waters. This is where my soul will lye.

Though these moments unplanned and answers I'm not searching to find, there is never going to be a more absolute stillness, a more real truth than the way I feel in your eyes. Time and place won't ever matter, for any distance could cease to know, the warm shadow of your love will have my back wherever I may go. I could look to the stars in desperate semantics, but the wisdoms of an eternal sky can no longer reveal what I already know. I'm no longer a hopeless romantic. Though age difference and pressure of a consistently changing world could force us to twist and turn. The spark of uncertainty is a mere cowards joke, in comparison to my love for you, a real fire I let burn. This may not be forever, but as long as your mine I will do my best to show you how I feel. I'll take my time, eternity can last in a moment, I know my love for you is real. The patience and understanding you have for me, like you already know who i am. I don't always deserve, but unwavering, I know in my heart you will always be a good man. So in my time with you I'll do my best to learn and grow. Even with gentle wrinkles under your soft eyes and graying hairs your so beautiful to me, baby I just wanted to take a second and let you know.

Always running it seems a race with no finish line, just stop at every checkpoint last minute desperate attempts for what I don't know, maybe just someone to call mine. A brief moment I'm caught in your eyes, you see me, a certain truth in this moment I can't disguise. In the morning it's over your gone it's all but truth only beautiful lies. The circle unending I reach such highs, only vain attempts to comfort the unbearable lows, a constant internal struggle the only resemblance in between that just I feel the blows. I need to fly the way you lift me up just one more time, to feel in bliss things about myself things unseen but oh so real with you when I feel your kiss. Only ever attracting the company I keep not my good friends, just broken demons that fester within me. I look in your eyes but I can't find you, your face always changing, the consistency is just in the end myself I'm left blaming. In a desperate attempt at feeling whole, to feel like I'm breathing, I lose more of myself every time I let you grab hold, for I know now nothing can ever stay if it's made of gold. May I never finish this race, for now in the endpoint, I'm afraid alone I'll only ever find my place. Until then again in the familiarity of strangers I'll weaken as I grasp tighter for my own reality I can't embrace. Right now I'm broken and it seems for some time this won't change hard to feel supported when your shadow doesn't even want to stay.

Brown eyes, Brown eyes so tempting to the touch. But just to be lost in your eyes for a moment, more than a spark is lit all my senses electrified as I light up. Brown eyes, Brown eyes just the thought of your kiss. It's more than enough to send me floating away in a skyward ship. But not to worry you've got me ******* and set free at the same time, I'll always return to you in a whisp. Brown eyes, Brown eyes so dangerous to the core. When I imagine a life beside you, I couldn't think of anything I'd want more.
So Brown eyes , Brown eyes I hope you have a great day, just know that I'm falling in love with you so simply put and complicated that way. But I'll figure it all out remember I think about your Brown eyes everyday...