The bowl might as well have been packed
with my hypocampus, every lighter spark
brought only memories of you.

I blew smoke signals to the wind,
begging the universe to mend
our broken fate line.

Sometimes I just want to hurt you,
without any reason
with vision of your
blood, my brother Alif,

and even feel your pleasure,
mixed with pain, when
I asked you many times
like in sad ridiculous refrain
If I hurt you so much,
if I had another lover,
If I was so close to him,
would you still love me?

You'are so deep,
so in love, complicated soul,
much ready to give all
to your vampire love,
You said just - Yes,
I can't stand the pain
to lose you, sister
or to leave me,
do what you like with
my heart, or better
**** me!

If you slept with him,
so tell me, how many
times he touched you...
feel how I'm bleeding.

"then you prefer your
pain than me leaving?"

"I'm just no one in the
dust without you, honey,
please your mercy give me!"

Sometimes I just want to hurt you,
to feel your pain, to tear me up,
I want you shouting and lose control,
but I knew... you need me, love me,
like your blood - as you are
masochistic.


.....nour.....
     may-013

Distance and time differences totally ****!
It’s Sunday evening there
And it’s Monday morning here;
You have to sleep and
I just woke up.
You know, I just want to sleep and
wake up next to you, with you
Make you some breakfast in bed
And that’s impossible, because
No matter how much we like to
Turn the clock around, or move the day
To match each other’s we’ll always be
Apart, always be apart.
Come home!

The sun didn't come up today
We stayed in bed
Waiting
Till 11:30
And said "If this is the end at least I'm spending it
with you."

And we turned on all the lights and got naked
Made the house into a beach
Drank old scotch
With little pink umbrellas
Like it was going out of style

We talked about Unicorns
How they never got the memo about the ark
And shouldn't there be fossils?!
Shouldn't there be something?!

We dressed the dog up
And she ruled over her blanket fort
With an iron paw
She had to be stopped
So like generals with swords
And guns drawn on our arms
We invaded
And the Maharaja's palace
Collapsed on top of us

We were drunk and in love

Love and in drunk
Under a mile of blankets
And sheets
Of paper
Made confetti
Tossed it up around our heads
White and prematurely aging
Paper dolls

We gave each other prison tats
With blue ink pens
And sewing needles
1 plus 1
Is 2 hearts sharing their last cup of tea
Their last bowl of mac and cheese

It's raining down in rhythm
On this the day of days
Poetic puddles forming
Along the side of life's highway

Splashing on the daily poems
As they go driving by in rhyme
Keeping up the flow and tempo
Posted on the roadside signs

The poets that hang out in the clouds
The ones that set the writings free
Do it out of love and devotion
Satisfying the deepest needs

To give life to the stanzas
A peaceful tranquillity
Washing the grime off of mankind
With the rain of poetry

It hurts that you still don't get what it is that I need , even after I spell it out for you.                    
    

Why do you make it so hard for us to work, with your selfishness and lack of interest in the things I do.


              I just don't even wanna
             Look at ya face.


I try to be there for you with anything you need, but for the things I ask of you, not even a backward glance.

Over and over we argue about theses issues, each time you vow a change if I give a second chance.


            But right now I don't
            Wanna look at ya face.

It is hard when a person that you love with all your heart is also the one that fills you with endless rage.


They say anything that is worth having is worth fighting for, but more often I wonder if we can survive after the "honeymoon stage".


         Cause at this moment I don't
      Wanna look at ya face