I found comfort with this ring,
Peace as I hear my soul sing;
An eternity of song for you  and I,
Every time I feel you nearby.

Nothing compares to how much,
I get electrified by a single touch;
Even when you are not around,
You are in this ring to I am bound.

This ring is my profession of our love,
This ring is my protection from above,
I commit to you again as a year’s past;
Vow to you and God, assured to last.

… with this ring.

There is pleasure when we trust,
Being together in prayer saved us;
So overblessed for you to be mine,
A rib only God set out for me to find.

The favor of God covers us both,
Through journeys of marital growth;
We are rejoice today without cursory,
Because God gave us an anniversary.


This ring is my profession of our love,
This ring is my protection from above,
I commit to you again as a year’s past;
Vow to you and God, assured to last.

… with this ring.

Happy Anniversary,
Baby.

Only after we fell apart,
Only after we crumbled to the ground,
Only after the last flame that was burning for us was put out,
Only after the crushing feeling started in my chest,
Only after the tears were streaming down my face,
Only after the distance between us grew unbearable,

Only after you left,
Only after all our promises were never to be answered,
Only after all our plans were never come true,
Only after I forgot how to breath,
Only after I forgot what feeling okay actually felt like,
Only after darkness was the only thing that filled my days,
                        and waiting for you was the only thing that I knew how to do,
Only after, expectations failed, hopes were ******, and feelings were spared,

Only after time alone,
Only after time with my thoughts,
Only after time to reflect,

Only then, did I see the flaws I had blinded myself from seeing,
Only then, did the realization of what we were fighting, the loosing battle, begin to show,
Only then, did I realize the toll it had taken on both of us,
Only then, did I realize how straining it was for both of us,
Only then, did I realize, that you are the one that I love,
Only then did I realize how hard we both fought our battle, the battle for each other,

But only then, did I realize, that sometimes the strongest form of love,

                                   Is letting someone go.

Sometimes
I feel that Life is a gift that I don't deserve.
While there is abundant beauty and infinite wonder,
there is so much pain, suffering and despair.
While I wish the pain would subside,
I know such a desire is fruitless
as existence requires suffering, or it at least certainly seems that way.
Every action and non-action propagate ripples which may never calm.

Life is a paradox:
Why? Why not? How? How could it not?
Illusory, yet real. Constant, yet with cessation.
Joy, pain, excitement, dread, disappointment, elation, fear, birth, death, now, never

So much that seems wrong to one person
all done just because our circumstance binds us
to things we'd rather do without.

So frightening is the notion of death, yet so painful is the concept of life.
Sometimes death seems more comfortable and desirable than life.

Lost in thought, found in confusion;
I think my life would be a gift better utilized by someone else.
I feel like a failure. A plague. A source of disdain and pain. Confusion.
Mostly to myself, but I've seen the effects of it on others, as well.
Sometimes I hate life too much to live
but some flame yet burns within me
demanding that I feed it oxygen and inspiration
that causes me to yearn for yet another breath.

Besides, what if I were to die tomorrow?
I might as well live now, today,
while I still have the chance.

Take something as simple as grains of sand,
Look at it if you can,
Picture it if you must,
Now, understand that your life IS revolving around these insignificant, ugly,
Things.
Lemme ask you something
Is it beautiful to you?
Because when everything’s beautiful
Everything means something.
It’s quite the opposite for me.
What’s whirling around me is not for the faint of heart.
You may think you’re prepared but you honestly
Aren’t.
Under this pale, freckled covered skin and heavy, hair matched, eyes is a dull dying soul.
Living with a severed heart. What was once carefully mended from the past broken road.
So…
I see you’ve made a fool of me, yet again.
Does my sheltered being tickle your funny bone?
Give you that…ya know
Painful laughter. As if inside you is screaming
“How could I be hurting the one I claimed to have loved?!” I was your happy, I was your crazy, I was your
Beautiful.
You had your lame, unacceptable, pathetic, coldhearted, mean, conniving reasons. Don’t worry I understand. But I am no longer the little girl from your memories, so stop living in them…it intervenes from the
Now.

And now, thing’s aren’t so beautiful.

I found you on the other side of the road,
an ocean's distance far.
Floating on the cloud you sang,
"Please don't get the best of me,
there is an itch I can't hold on to.
It's the only thing I feel,
its a pain I want to linger,
just to know I'm real."

This one is for you, my man in blue
Your touch I miss, your warm soft kiss
A strong and tough guy, my angel in disguise
A man like you has a lot of nerve, to do what you do, to protect and serve
I saw it from the start, your big huge heart
You give all that you have, just to wear that badge
Full of confidence and full of pride, you'll wear that uniform until the day you die
Intentions sincere, you show no fear
Always seeing hate and crime, willingly devoting all your time
You tell me it's all worth it, no chance you'll ever quit
I'll never ask this of you, because I know only one thing is true
As selfless as you seem, you are living out your dream
To know you gives me pride, I love being by your side
I love you more than words can say, And think about and pray for you each and every day
My guy in blue, if only you knew
How much you are protected and loved from the Lord above
You're a cut above the rest, and a force to be reckoned with my dear, Officer West