I smile
because I am eager
To not disappoint
Because I don't fit
I Lie
I am a Liar
I say what is pleasant
Promises of tomorrow
Take the fall
Not because I'm a bad person
I'm thoughtful
Using little lies
White necessity
Like Everyone
using them When the truth
Like me, can hurt
instead I spare them
I'm so nice
I Lie
I am a Liar
I use the very same reason
for nobody but myself
most of the time
So I can hide it away
So fluent am I
In this art of deflection
Protecting the lesser parts of me
so selfish, so frightened
so embarrassed by my faults,
Short-comings, things I don't like
So I lie
I am a Liar
See me, I am perfection
So easily liked,
I am lovely, thoughtful, caring
Tell me from the lies?
I have lost the ability
Who am I?
I Lie,
I am a Liar,
Selfish, uncaring
Insecure and hiding my reasons
Concerned not, for others
Unless it's their judgements,
So I Lie,
to be, to fit, to please, to pretend
Who am I?
I won't answer that honestly
I Lie
I am a Liar,
I blend in beside them

Right now, again I can’t take a breath
And the longing that I’ve been holding back
It is set loose to wreak more havoc
Welcome and expected the beautiful aftermath
Knowing the sadness for what it is
Embracing the bitterness rising up again
Now manifest myself this lonely man
Still hoping and foolishly longing after her
The woman I know I thought I might have loved
Knowing she doesn’t want him she doesn’t love him
More time is squandered and that time adds up
Bit by bit wasted on the woman he knows
I am okay with wasting away
Because I know I thought I really loved her
And I feel happiest when I am living in the past
Always longing
Always looking back
So I manifest myself this lonesome man
All he has lost and all he regrets
All the while knowing deep within my breast
She is not coming she is forever going
She is never coming back
Manifest myself this man
Exactly where I am at.