Walking,
Down grey city streets,
I don't feel the cold anymore,
I don't feel the rain,
There's brightness somewhere,
Beside me,
It's coming to an end,
Faltering along the way,
There is emptiness,
There is hunger,
But for something,
Other than the obvious

The sounds of our voices,
Spell the same word,
The only one we know,
Regret surrounds us,
Marking each footstep,
With the shame of the past

It's a disease,
It's destroying me,
Inside and out,
It breaks me open,
Sadness leaves it's mark,
And I carry my scars,
Where you can see them

Save me,
But what is there to save,
There is no life here,
It has been gone for years,
You can only postpone,
The inevitable,
For so long,
But I ask,
Selfishly, I ask,
Save me,
Before I breathe my last

I lie broken,
In self-condemnation,
I don't want to be,
Anything,
If you're not right

The ghost of the moon,
Hangs pale and awed,
In the dawn sky,
The shadow of the night

It's a shame,
We're still falling,
I should have just let go

From within my abyss,
I observe the light above,
The cold, dim light,
Shining in the blue,
Falling short of grace

Beneath fluorescents,
And shower smoke,
In the parting of the steam,
I'm six feet under,
Dripping, soaking,
Bent into my own shadow

I write him,
A collage of words,
A book of pain and hope and death,
To show him,
Sincerity

You break me down,
And call it love,
You lift me up,
To let me fall,
You broke my heart,
To hear me cry,
You left me,
Your so-called love,
Beneath the sky

Since when has it been,
So hard to say,
I care about you,
Why is it so,
Difficult to admit,
I love you,
When did things get,
So **** complicated,
Why do I find myself,
Incapable of conversation,
Around you,
The three feet between us,
More like 3 miles,
And I just can't do the distance

It hits me hard,
Pulling the oxygen,
Straight from my fractured lungs,
I'm so uncertain,
Of myself,
Of the world,
Because when I finally,
Get what I've been waiting for,
The fun's over,
And I realise,
Maybe this isn't what I wanted,
I'm taken aback,
By this sudden change,
It feels like I've lost,
My sense of direction,
Like gravity decided,
To fall to zero,
Without warning,
Throwing my mind,
Into a state of unfamiliar confusion,
Where all I can do,
Is wonder about what could have been,
If things never changed,
And we were still,
Caught up in trivial conversation,
In the midst of laughter,
A place where solemnity,
Can't hold us down