my heart is full this new years eve
aware
at any moment
my heart can be ripped to pieces
this ticking bomb
no longer looms in my shadow
time
has stolen pieces of my soul
left me bare
to question my own identity
despite the cruel nature of the clock
I accept and thank you
for your ruthless love

It is love that moves time forward

I Worry because
My reflection
Is a woman I find weak
Some say worry is a mental wobbling
The hesitation before making a choice

How can I let this happen
Watch
As my Worry lives my life without me

I can swear, I can joke
I say what's on my mind
If I drink, if I smoke
I keep up with the guys
And you see me holding up my middlefinger to the world
**** your ribbons and your pearls
'Cause I'm not just a pretty girl

I'm more than just a picture
I'm a daughter and a sister
Sometimes it's hard for me to show
That I'm more than just a rumor
Or a song on your computer
There's more to me than people know

Some days I'm broke, some days I'm rich
Some days I'm nice, some days I can be a *****
Some days I'm strong, some days I quit
I don't let it show, but I've been through some ****

I'm more than just a number
I'm a hater, I'm a lover
Sometimes it's hard for me to show
That I'm more than just a title
Or a comment going viral
There's more to me than people know