i feel it burning down in my gut
when i see the facts all laid out
like i should've just known
and maybe i wouldn't have seemed like such a clown
too bad i guess
there's not much i can do now
but cry about it in the dead of night
and pretend it's okay when daylight comes around

accusations burn in your brain
and sizzle on your tongue
you have issues that won't go away
quite big they have become
should watch who you blame
and come to terms with what you've done
telling the truth isn't the same
as only sharing what you want

i feel so good
i feel loose
i feel ready
i feel the need to be used
i feel like satin
wrapped into a noose
i feel like death
glamorized and seduced
i feel a lot
yet i feel reduced
but i feel it can be fixed
if i could feel you

bind my wrists
then throw me overboard
into the ocean
that is overwhelmingly yours
just pin my arms down
and hold me to the floor
don't even give me the option
to look at the door
deny me the right
to leave this room
like my sole purpose
is to be with you
forbid me to go
i want you to do it
your waters are rough
but your movements are so fluid

i don't regret
anything i said
nor do i
care to deny
that i was in the wrong
all along
i knew i'd face this hate
i did it anyways
i do not feel bad
if it makes you feel better you can hurt me back
i am not ashamed
i face this criticism unafraid
i chose this ending
i will do no defending
i broke the promise
i was dishonest
i told the lie
now i will pay the price
and as much as it *****
i find it hard to muster up
the fake tears
or act sincere
i am sorry for show
deep down I know
what i did was not a sin
and i am bound and willing to do it again
but to make you stand back
i retract

you took something inside of me
and broke it
didn't even try to fix it
if you felt guilty you didn't show it
kind of left me ruined
and no one wants the toy that's broken
it ruins the fun you know
like a present that's already been opened
all of the good stuff is gone
it's now bitter, hollow, and potent
angry at the other dolls
even though it's you that chose them
what was there to gain from hurting me
i can't move on until i know it

i'm but a speck
i can do nothing
i am nothing
who are you

i'm but a speck
i've done nothing
i feel like nothing
what is it to you

i'm but a speck
i will be nothing
i do nothing
and neither do you

i'm but a speck
and though i say its nothing
it feels like something
you are nothing too