nobody wants me for me
only for what i can do
or give
i'm at a table full of people i know
but there's no one
to actually talk with
the painful realization
i have no one to run to
when i feel afraid
though you try to reach me
you dont try hard enough
and i pull away
and i can already see you
not noticing
but i won't lose sleep about it
it's amazing how lonely
a person can be
when they're constantly surrounded
like there's not even time
to just be me
or take off the mask
i want to stay
i do
but you remind me of the past
and i don't need you
trying to convince me
that it'll be fine
if i just relax
because their faces
say otherwise
and that feeling I get
everytime you
say the wrong thing
when you just do
and forget to think
when you hurt me
tells me that
being around you
ends in nothing good
but who cares
i'm not letting you go because i want to
it's because i should
cause if i cant
be happy for you
i shouldn't be around
it isnt right
to sulk in your shadow
and bring you down
it just it hurts
to see you tolerate
such trash
you'll defend your friends
and dismiss it when
they stab me in the back
when they ignore me
and make it impossible
for me to feel like I belong
you'll always choose them
you've always chosen them
you dont have to choose from now on
so stop reaching out
you never really cared
and itll hurt me more than you
so stop drawing it out
go find your other friends
and leave me alone to
cry
hate myself
and deal
it's gonna get worse
before it gets better
i only pray to heal