Hey nice shoes
     Wanna trade?
Haha, sure, I look great in heels
     That's good, because they are killing my feet
Oh no! That's awful, here let me help you
     Haha, thanks. I like your eyes
I like your jacket
     It was my dad's
That's so cool
     I like to think so
**** I'm late for class
     I'll still trade you shoes
Maybe later Beautiful

If I could turn back time
I'd go back and I would be better
I'd be less selfish
I'd focus more on your needs
Your desires,
Your wants
If I could turn back time
I'd go back and buy that ticket
I'd go and visit you so that you'd know
Just how much I love you
How much I miss you
How much I need you
If I could turn back time
I would shower you with affection
I'd teach you just how much
You mean to me because
I love you
I love you
I love you
But you don't love me anymore
If I could turn back time
I would be a better girlfriend
And I wouldn't be here now
Crying and wondering where I went wrong
But I know it's because I'm too unhealthy
Mentally and emotionally
I'm sorry I still love you,
I hope you can forgive me
If I could turn back time
I'd hide my depression better
My anxiety
My PTSD
I'd ask you everyday
"How was your day?
How is your bloodsugar?
How are you? Because I really want to know"
I'd say to you
"You are everything to me
You are the love of my life
You are amazing"
I love you
I'm sorry I can't turn off my heart
Like some sort of radio
You might have taken the keys away
But you forgot I run on faith
If I could turn back time
You would never have to doubt how
Deep my love for you is
Because you are my life
My world
My heart
I love you
I love you
I love you
*I'm sorry

I know that we all feel pain
And heartbreak
But that's no reason to tear ourselves apart
For falling prey to abusive relationships
We only stay because
We truly believe that they will change
And even we realize they won't
We hope they will
We feel (we know) they still love us
But that's no excuse to stay
And drown ourselves in
"Why?"
"What did I do wrong??"
Because we have done nothing
But existed as human beings
Loving fearlessly

It's my turn to be demanding
You break up with me then say
"Remember the promise you made me"
I made you so many but you mean the one
About self harm
"That's not fair!"
So you told me you want me safe
But now it is my turn

Don't you dare tell me you don't love me
Don't you dare break my heart again
Don't you dare say you care but tell me you're leaving anyways
Don't you dare treat me like a child
Don't you dare make decisions for me
Don't you dare change who you are
Don't you dare lose sight of yourself
Don't you dare give up

I love you
I miss you
I'm sorry

I'm a primary document to all the **** I have said
You are obviously not a historian
For you favor your secondary documents
To the main source

Didn't your mama teach you
To not be a *****-addicted *****
Who needs to drown yourself in the
Lies society tells you

I don't know if your daddy ever told you
But you don't lie to women like me
You really shouldn't **** with people like me
Because I don't know if you know this but

I'm the kind of ***** who run
In a wedding dress and stripper heels
Because hunny, you **** me off

Should I write your eulogy?