You will no longer have my
Undying, unyielding, unapologetic
Love as soon as I permanently halt
Breathing in oxygen and exhaling
Carbon dioxide because darling
I am female and cheap whiskey and
Superfluous *** will not heal my
Broken heart that you
Are the only Band-Aid to but I
Understand you don't know how unfair
It is to be forced into pretending a
Love was never there
But I promise
As soon as Antarctica has a month long
Heat wave of over 90 degrees Fahrenheit
I will stop loving you
You don't have to worry about apologizing
Because sweetheart
I forgave you for all the pain you
Caused me the first time you said
"Hi"

I believe I lost my train of thought
At the "Oh My, Did You Hear Him
Talking About Sylvia Plath Like That
Junction"
I believe I lost my guarded heart
At the station ten minutes back
Before we even began starting to speak
Of "all the possibilities and miracles"
That occur in everyday life
Even though we've "been let down so often"
Because we "still believe there's a chance
That cupid could decide"
To be kind again and honest
And we "believe in forever"
I think I lost my mind
Because I must have forgotten
How hurt I've been before
Maybe though
Someday I will meet this man

"It's okay if you don't love me anymore
Sometimes I don't love me either,
I just..." choked laugh "...need to know
That you are still breathing"
Tears begin to roll as my voice shakes
Violently threatening to be heard through
The speaker,
That is if he listens
"I miss you,
I love you"
Those choked laughs start up again
"I really do and I am so sorry
I'm sorry I'm selfish and I'm
Sorry I don't always put your needs and desires
First
But I need you to know just how much I love you
Please call me
Text me
Anything
I just need to make sure you're still breathing"
*Because it's becoming hard for me to do so

All day as I walk around town
Around school
Around life
All I breathe in is hate and anger

It rolls around in my lungs
And chokes me violently just
Like when I tried smoking with my
Cousins who told me they hated the addiction

And honestly, I don't want that
So I exhale love because
I can't continue to add pain to
This world that is bleeding with a need

We need to be focusing more on
Building each other, not taking us down
And we need to acknowledge that our
Self health is only as healthy as the things we say

Our words are reflections of
How we view ourselves
We need to remember that it okay to
Walk away and put ourselves first sometimes

We cannot please everyone
Nor can we save the entire world
But oh my ****
If we can't try by way of love

Isn't it funny that
Hookers and religious activists
Stand on parallel corners
Of the same street?

If a boy says "I love you"
He's probably an *******