ears
in class
listening
tissue
gas levels

brain
i want to die
let me sleep
i quit
i cant hear you
bye
bye
bye
bye

I am nothing
I am no one
Try to hurt me please
Try to ignore me please

I don’t matter
Don’t talk to me please
You don’t want to be my anything.

I am alone
Blame me for your problems
Hate me for your ego

I am nothing
I am no one
I don’t matter
I am always alone

Irreconcilable  
Negative
Suffering
Ornate
Morbid
Never-ending  
Intense
Alone

Please, behave
like adults.

Are you?

twenty-three
i feel much older

too much has happened
too many have gone

no one my age
is like me

i should just walk into the woods
once my father dies who will miss me

i’m too different  
i’m too damaged
i’m too weird

have you
done half of the things
that shame me
i’ve done them all

i’m sorry
i’m not good enough

you’re sorry i’m not different

i’m afraid
we get married
you start hitting me

i can’t control anything anymore

hey
hi
hello

can you hear me
you’re not listening

you’re ruining everything

it’s not a game
i’m not playing

we just built things back up
tear them back down

i don’t know
how long
i can ride this rollercoaster
before i tear myself down

i’m not mad
i’ve been crying

you don’t think
before you scream

shut the **** up.

i’m so tired
a nice warm bullet
could tuck me in

why do i always get this
i should just be alone

shut the **** up.
those words echo
...inside my head