listen: her gravity,
I want to be the liquid
In her cavities

I want to go inside the house
Where everyone else is playing and singing

But I'm still on the porch looking in
I knock, but cannot be heard over the sound of friendships much louder than mine

I want to be inside this house, but every time I've been inside my feet stay out the door

I tried to go through the backyard, but thie house is double locked

I broke the windows of the house on 98th St and 96th Terr and saw what was inside
It rained that day and I was still outside on the lawn now looking in

Every thing I need is in that house and I'm hungry and thirsty

I can't go inside because the residents who brought me in don't live there anymore and I cannot keep up with new tenants

I hope I'll find someone who's locked out of a home

I wanted you to **** me
So I came in fishnets and
We drank the panacea

And I said I'd be your
Aphrodisiac

I got greedy
And I liked the way you held my heart
In between shallow breaths
And I wanted you to love me

In between commercial breaks and
Mouthsful of grapes and gluttony
I wanted to be sinned and to be sinned by only you

I only knew what it felt to be wanted
But I was greedy
And I needed you to love me
But you could only **** me

I want to exist in our
Romanticized euphoria
Where we were one
And they were none

I am the birds again this winter
Because I know that it is warmer
In the South these days
But I'd rather exist in the smile in our eyes

And they are none and we are none
Today we do not migrate
And it is colder where you are and I am
Following my instincts

But some of us are anomalies and must
Abandon--redefine our euphoria

And the South was my utopia
Until I romanticized the cold again
And left my flock against my desires
I was forced into the cold without a coat

I couldn't fly and you were there to fix
My wings and force me back into the cold
I always wondered why the birds went South

Let me exist in your South & we'll pretend the North is warm in the winter
I can become your euphoria
If you let me fly;

I miss the way I'd count the seconds
On those hour-long bus rides through your heartbeats-my ears so perfectly
Contrived

It made sense that the minutes went so fast
If your heartbeats were the seconds
I couldn't fathom a past or a future
We were living in the present

I miss the way our hands felt warm
They say you can't pinpoint the location of an electron because it gets excited
I never knew where we were

I drank half a bottle to myself again
But I still couldn't find you
And I'm not the one that excites you anymore

Let us be then: you and I
In an exchange of energy, you and me
I will give up for you what you give up to me
And we can exist entirely

But let us go then
And we can debate about the usages of words that no one else but you and I will ever know

And I will love you to the passive voice
You will be loved by me
I will be loved by you


Let us break the second law of thermodynamics
Because you and me
we're better than exchanges of energy
I am perpetual to you and I will be to you a violation of the laws of entropy

Every movement that we make will ease the chaos in our lives
And let us do then what we're not supposed to do
And let me go then where I'm warned not to go
And I will take you and you will take me

Forget entropy
And just love me