I want to be asked if i'm okay.
But i will lie anyway.
You could still ask, and at least pretend that you care.
But what you really could do,
is break me down to my knees,
and let me sob and rant and mumble about everything that is truly wrong.
And you think that i am stupid for first brushing you off but really wanting to talk to you.
But really i do that because i learned that its safer to assume you don't care, than to assume you do and look like a fool.

It has been a week.
I block you, just to unblock you to see your poems...

I wonder if i am so vain as to believe any are about me.

When i packed up and left,
i only did because i had been scared to death.

I am a horrible *****.
Doing to others the very thing that terrifies me.

I go back now as to see both pictures,
i think its the same person...

i
know
what
i
can
do
to
find
out
the
truth
=
=
=
im
just
scared
to
death.

Young sons and daughters, abused, ***** and slaughtered, by their own fathers.

My heart just pounded,
as the thoughts just sounded,
oh so loud and clear.


10 Months it been.
Since i've blessed my skin with a silver angel kiss.


2 Months till a year!
Didn't you hear?

Can i throw it all away.
Erase 10 months to 10 seconds...
Until i've met my death sentence.

I would have to walk 20 steps,
just to efface it all...

I lay here crying,
Slowly, slowly dying.

I am gone.
I have drifted away.

One tragic event,
has left me so bent.

I have screamed,
and cried.
Yelling "I WISH I COULD DIE!!!"

You *****,
You ripped it away from me.

My life, my little bit of normal-ness.
Can't you see what you have done?!
I can't miss my friends without getting a knot in my throat.

I still love my old friends
I don't know where to begin...

Here in my new home...

I
HAVE
NO
ONE